update!
hey LJ! heres a little update.
I've been working at Taco Bell/KFC in Geneseo for a couple months now, and that's been goin' alright. It's a little rough on my schedule because I work closing shift until 1 am and then stay up hours after trying to wind down. I feel like I stay up to feel accomplished with something and then become anxious for the next day to come and end up staying up till 5 and accomplishing nothing the next day except for making it to work. AHHHH hopefully I can break this cycle!
I'm also still giving a few lessons at Impact! and practicing with the song writer there Nate Carey. He's suuuchhh an amazing artist and being able to play music with him is great. we're getting ready to go back to NYC spring break so that should be sweet...gah except for the COST of the trip. with the new car payment and new phone bill and car insurance, it's hard to save cash...especially with the NEED to replace my cymbals!!! I haven't been playing lately just because my set totally blows without good cymbals. with the loss of these cymbals, I feel like just giving up. to get back all that I lost is going to take forever. like this happened a WHILE ago but to this day, EVERYDAY, it hurts me. It depresses me. I can't even enjoy playing drums, and with the loss of that enjoyment I've become a sorry excuse for a drummer. with that came me being let go from CCA, which I felt was going pretty well but with my loss of cymbals, I feel they probably made the right move because I STILL haven't been able to replace my cymbals and they let me go a couple months ago. shit just isn't goin' to well for me musically and music happens to be the only thing I can say I truely love. I truely have a PASSION for it, I know that I NEED it. I learn about it as much as I can, I listen, I pay attention, I study and strive to know as much as I can. yet I feel i need to go back to school to really accomplish any progress, or at least start taking lessons again. my self discipline to sit down and make myself learn IS NOT working for me.
but yeah I feel like I need to keep up on writing SOMETHING, I don't really write anything and I feel i'm losing my english skills. In fact I feel I'm losing alot by not having the constant exersize, physically and mentally. I can't even remember the last time I solved a math equation. I really need to excersize my brain on a regular basis until I can get back to school, I feel like I'm only getting dumb and losing all that I gained in highschool...2 years OUT of highschool...so like, not only am I not progressing/getting smarter/going farther in life than highschool, I'm lowering my chances to do so. shiiiiiit.
well anyway enough of this. hopefully I'll keep update some more with other stuff that I left out.
oh how about one of you comes and kicks my ass for not going away to college DIRECTLY out of highschool.
I've been working at Taco Bell/KFC in Geneseo for a couple months now, and that's been goin' alright. It's a little rough on my schedule because I work closing shift until 1 am and then stay up hours after trying to wind down. I feel like I stay up to feel accomplished with something and then become anxious for the next day to come and end up staying up till 5 and accomplishing nothing the next day except for making it to work. AHHHH hopefully I can break this cycle!
I'm also still giving a few lessons at Impact! and practicing with the song writer there Nate Carey. He's suuuchhh an amazing artist and being able to play music with him is great. we're getting ready to go back to NYC spring break so that should be sweet...gah except for the COST of the trip. with the new car payment and new phone bill and car insurance, it's hard to save cash...especially with the NEED to replace my cymbals!!! I haven't been playing lately just because my set totally blows without good cymbals. with the loss of these cymbals, I feel like just giving up. to get back all that I lost is going to take forever. like this happened a WHILE ago but to this day, EVERYDAY, it hurts me. It depresses me. I can't even enjoy playing drums, and with the loss of that enjoyment I've become a sorry excuse for a drummer. with that came me being let go from CCA, which I felt was going pretty well but with my loss of cymbals, I feel they probably made the right move because I STILL haven't been able to replace my cymbals and they let me go a couple months ago. shit just isn't goin' to well for me musically and music happens to be the only thing I can say I truely love. I truely have a PASSION for it, I know that I NEED it. I learn about it as much as I can, I listen, I pay attention, I study and strive to know as much as I can. yet I feel i need to go back to school to really accomplish any progress, or at least start taking lessons again. my self discipline to sit down and make myself learn IS NOT working for me.
but yeah I feel like I need to keep up on writing SOMETHING, I don't really write anything and I feel i'm losing my english skills. In fact I feel I'm losing alot by not having the constant exersize, physically and mentally. I can't even remember the last time I solved a math equation. I really need to excersize my brain on a regular basis until I can get back to school, I feel like I'm only getting dumb and losing all that I gained in highschool...2 years OUT of highschool...so like, not only am I not progressing/getting smarter/going farther in life than highschool, I'm lowering my chances to do so. shiiiiiit.
well anyway enough of this. hopefully I'll keep update some more with other stuff that I left out.
oh how about one of you comes and kicks my ass for not going away to college DIRECTLY out of highschool.