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Sitting and Looking out the window
My mind wondering around everywhere
Thinking about things that bother me
Vented about it once
Let everyone know what i felt
Then the little Angel appeared
And now that Vent disappeared
Many thoughts in my Head
Wonderment about people i love
Many thoughts today
About my decisions recently
should i have made those choices
Maybe i should have walked away
Maybe they were right
Time isnt on my side
Never has been
Its worked against me all my life
Face it kids
My life is doomed from the beginning
Last night i wondered about a few people
Vented alot
Let it all out
only one man read it
Wont speak to me anymore
Cant blame him.. Its his choice
Vented about a girl
a Girl i recently welcomed again
Already the heart ive given her on many occassions
Broken Battered and Beaten
Didnt take her but two Days
If he is who she wants
she can have him
I have no more cares in the world
What was once mended
What was once nearly fixed
Has died for good
There is No more love anymore
There is no more cares for everyone
Im broken to the point of living no more
But
I cant grant you the wish youve wanted for so long
The Problems...
Never was me and my heart
The Problems...
Have always been what you have done
Those are finally solved with the obvious
The Obvious that i never saw
And is now in plain view for me to see
You Love him
Go to him
Leave me be
The Mistake was on my part
But the hurtful truth is now Obvious
See everyone on the Darkside....
Now... To explain it
Chris... I know you read that vent... And im sorry homie.. Im hopin we can talk this out man.... So holla at me please
And to the other person.....
Ashley... I know you like Angel, I know you love him
You said it to him.. You want him more then me and its obvious... It wasnt to me till recently
You wait on him hand and foot.. every day or near it
Online.. You are quiet.. why?.. Angel
Offline.. You never call.. Why?.. Angel
And i never figured out why you were always distant from me for the last 2 months... And now its clear... Angel.. simple as that
You were playing both rails and you were caught...
I read all your shit you damn wanker! EVERY BIT OF IT! BECAUSE I LOVE MY MOTHER FUCKO DEE DEE! Now I'm hurt! I'm going to bed because I know Angel isn't gonna call me back... He's getting high at a friends house! lol And usually it bothers me.. But not with Angel... I don't get it... *Sigh* Going to bed.. buh bye
Remember that post on Dee's Journal
That was made yesterday.... Meaning you were on... But never talked to me.. Not one msg.. No call for me.. But for him you waited
You dont love me Ashley... And its rather clear now... You hang out with Angel.. You wait for him to call.. Just like you used to with me... And you said you love him
go to him Ashley... you want him more then me... You obviously do...
I was just a pawn in your little world to play with
Im sorry i made a mistake
I always seem to do that
Again
Broken... Beaten... Battered...
Left with nothin but my Fallen tears
My mind wondering around everywhere
Thinking about things that bother me
Vented about it once
Let everyone know what i felt
Then the little Angel appeared
And now that Vent disappeared
Many thoughts in my Head
Wonderment about people i love
Many thoughts today
About my decisions recently
should i have made those choices
Maybe i should have walked away
Maybe they were right
Time isnt on my side
Never has been
Its worked against me all my life
Face it kids
My life is doomed from the beginning
Last night i wondered about a few people
Vented alot
Let it all out
only one man read it
Wont speak to me anymore
Cant blame him.. Its his choice
Vented about a girl
a Girl i recently welcomed again
Already the heart ive given her on many occassions
Broken Battered and Beaten
Didnt take her but two Days
If he is who she wants
she can have him
I have no more cares in the world
What was once mended
What was once nearly fixed
Has died for good
There is No more love anymore
There is no more cares for everyone
Im broken to the point of living no more
But
I cant grant you the wish youve wanted for so long
The Problems...
Never was me and my heart
The Problems...
Have always been what you have done
Those are finally solved with the obvious
The Obvious that i never saw
And is now in plain view for me to see
You Love him
Go to him
Leave me be
The Mistake was on my part
But the hurtful truth is now Obvious
See everyone on the Darkside....
Now... To explain it
Chris... I know you read that vent... And im sorry homie.. Im hopin we can talk this out man.... So holla at me please
And to the other person.....
Ashley... I know you like Angel, I know you love him
You said it to him.. You want him more then me and its obvious... It wasnt to me till recently
You wait on him hand and foot.. every day or near it
Online.. You are quiet.. why?.. Angel
Offline.. You never call.. Why?.. Angel
And i never figured out why you were always distant from me for the last 2 months... And now its clear... Angel.. simple as that
You were playing both rails and you were caught...
I read all your shit you damn wanker! EVERY BIT OF IT! BECAUSE I LOVE MY MOTHER FUCKO DEE DEE! Now I'm hurt! I'm going to bed because I know Angel isn't gonna call me back... He's getting high at a friends house! lol And usually it bothers me.. But not with Angel... I don't get it... *Sigh* Going to bed.. buh bye
Remember that post on Dee's Journal
That was made yesterday.... Meaning you were on... But never talked to me.. Not one msg.. No call for me.. But for him you waited
You dont love me Ashley... And its rather clear now... You hang out with Angel.. You wait for him to call.. Just like you used to with me... And you said you love him
go to him Ashley... you want him more then me... You obviously do...
I was just a pawn in your little world to play with
Im sorry i made a mistake
I always seem to do that
Again
Broken... Beaten... Battered...
Left with nothin but my Fallen tears