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My Grandmother passed away last night. She had been going slowly for a while ever since I left so it's not like I didn't have time to prepare myself, I just didn't think she'd go so soon. I was hoping to be out there with her for Christmas. I spoke with her last week and told her I would take some pictures to send to her so she could see where I lived. I didn't. Being too busy and not making it a big enough priority to get that done. Now I can't get that out of my head. I wasn't ready for her to go so soon. It's hard dealing with this while being so far from home. Friends offer comfort, but it's not the same as family.
Work is stressful today to boot and I just want to leave, but this job, and my will to succeed in it, are too important. I refuse to cry at work, no matter how upset or stressed out I become. I simply refuse.
Rhonda and I sat on the beach last night when I found out. We talked about it. I think I'll do that on my own tonight to clear my head.
I love you Grandma, I hope now you can see how beautiful it is here... I wanted you to see so you could be proud. Maybe now you finally can.
Work is stressful today to boot and I just want to leave, but this job, and my will to succeed in it, are too important. I refuse to cry at work, no matter how upset or stressed out I become. I simply refuse.
Rhonda and I sat on the beach last night when I found out. We talked about it. I think I'll do that on my own tonight to clear my head.
I love you Grandma, I hope now you can see how beautiful it is here... I wanted you to see so you could be proud. Maybe now you finally can.