I want to feel anything but this...
I only have a short while left with my cat, Bagheera. She either has cancer in her kidneys or some form of kidney disease such as Lymphoma. All I can do is hold her, pet her, talk to her, give her her fluid injections once a day, and wait for her quality of life to deteriorate until I decide to put her to sleep. It won't be long; I can't let her suffer.