Insomnia & Insanity
I had a total meltdown last night, I was up until almost 5 am stressing about this new job and I don't even know why. I'm happy to have a job at all, but just the thought of being put in a new and unfamiliar situation was enough to send me off on a full blown panic attack that lasted until like 5 am. I really hope that I don't blow this one. It'll not even look bad for me, but for Debbie, too, since she's the one who got me the job. God I hope this works out.
This weekend was actually halfway decent. Paul took me out to Flatspin on Friday night, and we had an awesome time. We came back here and he stayed over and I went to work with him on Saturday so he could finish up a side work job and then he had to go to his second job. Jeaneen came over, she's all drama'd out. Beemer went back to his wife (big shock there) and she's all stressed out because she's 6 months pregnant with the idiot's kid and he's just gonna up and walk out on her like that? Pretty messed up if you ask me.
Paul came over after his second job was over on Saturday night and slept over. Yesterday he had to go home for a while, but then Jeaneen came over again. Apparently, Marie & Trish are getting on her nerves and she's all screwed up about Beemer walking out on her. I feel bad for her, but she should have known better than to get involved with a man who was separated from his wife & already has kids with. He says he's doing it for the kids, but what about the one she's carrying? Friggin men. At least I know I have a good one. I might bitch and moan about him sometimes, but I know that he loves me, and he's more than proved it in the last few months. Paul came over before he had to go to his second job last night but went home after work. I missed him so much. Now that I'm working this crazy job with crazy hours, I'm wondering how we're gonna ever get to see one another between our work schedules. Oh well, you know what they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?
Oh well, I better call it a night already. I don't have to be in until 3:00 in the afternoon, but I still wanna get up at a decent time to get ready for the big day. Please, God, if you're listening, no more panic attacks. I can't afford to screw this one up!! That being said, I'm out.
This weekend was actually halfway decent. Paul took me out to Flatspin on Friday night, and we had an awesome time. We came back here and he stayed over and I went to work with him on Saturday so he could finish up a side work job and then he had to go to his second job. Jeaneen came over, she's all drama'd out. Beemer went back to his wife (big shock there) and she's all stressed out because she's 6 months pregnant with the idiot's kid and he's just gonna up and walk out on her like that? Pretty messed up if you ask me.
Paul came over after his second job was over on Saturday night and slept over. Yesterday he had to go home for a while, but then Jeaneen came over again. Apparently, Marie & Trish are getting on her nerves and she's all screwed up about Beemer walking out on her. I feel bad for her, but she should have known better than to get involved with a man who was separated from his wife & already has kids with. He says he's doing it for the kids, but what about the one she's carrying? Friggin men. At least I know I have a good one. I might bitch and moan about him sometimes, but I know that he loves me, and he's more than proved it in the last few months. Paul came over before he had to go to his second job last night but went home after work. I missed him so much. Now that I'm working this crazy job with crazy hours, I'm wondering how we're gonna ever get to see one another between our work schedules. Oh well, you know what they say, absence makes the heart grow fonder, right?
Oh well, I better call it a night already. I don't have to be in until 3:00 in the afternoon, but I still wanna get up at a decent time to get ready for the big day. Please, God, if you're listening, no more panic attacks. I can't afford to screw this one up!! That being said, I'm out.