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I've come to a realization.
I've been doing all the deeds of a girlfriend, without actually being a girlfriend. Its brilliant on my part. I play the part without actually getting the emotional benefit. Its why I've been so dissatisfied. I mean i love those boys to death. But i know i was trying to compensate for the fact that I'm missing out on something. And then i have the nerve to get upset when they don't show how much they care for me. I'm not saying that i want to date any of them. Its not that. Its that i found great guys who i care for and who care for me but there's no attraction on either part. We're just best friends. It still doesn't fill that void that I'm trying to remedy.
Unbelievable. I don't know what this means i have to do next.
I need a change.
I've been doing all the deeds of a girlfriend, without actually being a girlfriend. Its brilliant on my part. I play the part without actually getting the emotional benefit. Its why I've been so dissatisfied. I mean i love those boys to death. But i know i was trying to compensate for the fact that I'm missing out on something. And then i have the nerve to get upset when they don't show how much they care for me. I'm not saying that i want to date any of them. Its not that. Its that i found great guys who i care for and who care for me but there's no attraction on either part. We're just best friends. It still doesn't fill that void that I'm trying to remedy.
Unbelievable. I don't know what this means i have to do next.
I need a change.