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[dildobear]

Got home from dereks house-I am completely hating life right not-I hate girls and I dont know why their cant just be one for me to find that their is not anything wrong with and they can be straight up with me. They can just be okay that sometimes I want to see  my guy friends who I havnt seen in 2 weeks, all the while I have been hanging out with you the last 5 days. I just want to meet someone that understands and that can comprehend the things that I am saying when they do not make any sense.

I really want to get out of this place. I wish I could take all my friends, who skate, with me and go to Europe and just skate 100% of the time. I want to forget everyone here(almost everyone). Sometimes I think life would be better if I were somewhere else, I just want to see how things would turn out if I was somewhere different. Just move to Barcelona and see what happens ya know? Why the Fuck not. whose stopping me, some band, some people that I think care about me in some way, w.e.

I hate fake people, I try to be as real as I can and there are people that just try to put it all on for everyone.

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