jpop idols...the obsession ends...hopefully
Okay, So I'm pretty sure I'm obsessed with this whole Japanese Pop thing and all these boybands. I know I should stop. I mean I am a 20 yr. old junior in college and I'm still listening to pop songs. And the funny thing is that I can't even understand what they're saying because it's all in Japanese! But to be honest, I completely don't mind. I know I'm a dork but it's the only thing that I can go back to.
I know I say that I read and such but this is like my pasttime. Whenever I get really bored, what else do I have to do but watch dramas or listen to their music or watch their videos. I know in a year or two (since I already feel my obsession going away) that I'll look back on these years and thing "WTF was I thinking?" I mean they're very girly guys...but I've come to terms with the fact that they are Japanese and that I will accept the fact that that's just how they act. It's so weird to be able to be used to something so manly and now I can accept the fact that guys can be so girly and yet be straight, and that they're not even metro. They're just straight but it's just how their culture is.
I still don't know what I'm thinking trying to learn a language aside from the two I already know. I don't know if I actually want to learn Chinese and Japanese and even Korean, along with Spanish, and Frech. Oh yea, I am going to learn these languages one way or another. I don't know how but when I get the opportunity, I'm going to grab it and I would love to do it. I know that at the moment I'm limited at what I can do and that I can only do so much to be able to learn, but I will go to these countries one day and I will learn them there. I know that submersion into a culture is the only way to learn their ways and obviously their language. So that is what I plan to do.
But moving from that. I wonder if I look back in 10 years if I'll think...Sakurai Sho or Yamashita Tomohisa were the cutest Japanese guys ever but they were soooo far away. I guess I could have had ***** if he had me, however, we're just friends. I wonder if I'll even remember this Japanese obsession I have right now. Technically it's not an obsession. I guess I started that when I started asking my mother to buy me Arashi stuff and when my friends started giving me News and Arashi magazines, but it's alright.
It won't ever happen, but if I were ever to meet one of them, I don't think I could actually admit to them that I was a fan of theirs. I feel like such a fangirl, fangirling over boys who were so out of reach. Out of reach meaning, celebrities that you just had dreams of sometimes. And it didn't even involve anything special, just everyday life. Something like going to school or just hanging out. Either way, were I ever to meet one of them, or any Johnny that I ever liked, I don't think I could say "I had such a crush on you back then, I don't know why but I just thought you were hot" or "I loved it when you took your shirt off, you had such a great body" or worse, "Yea you were a phone charm for me once" I don't know why but I think that it's embarrassing to admit that you were once a fangirl.
I mean I know it's okay to admit that when you're in America and the thing you're obsessing over is here...but the thing I'm currently into are Japanese Pop Idols. I mean really now. It's kind of strange to think about it but I think that in the distant future, I just have a feeling that I might just meet one of them. I don't know who it will be, but it'll be by coincidence and that I might haver forgotten completely who they are...but I might be happy to meet them. See, I sound like a fangirl. I'm fantasizing the day I meet one...but by then I'm sure they just won't be that popular anymore. I mean, when I think of it, i'm thinking like when I'm around 50...They can't possibly still be idols by then.
So now what? As much as I *heart* them, and I know I've said this before, I don't know how much more I can take, watching their concerts, their tv performances, downloading their music (because I have no money to buy any of it), and looking through pictures of them in magazines, it's all fun and all but one day I'll have to grow up. Especially this coming semester and this coming year. But then again, when I actually think about it, it's the Johnny's (and no lie) that help me through my school. Whenever I can't take anymore and I just want to get away, it's all I watch to take my mind off things, even if it's just for a short while.
Call me dumb, but I'm happy that I stumbled upon this whole Japanese thing. If not...I don't know what kind of phase I would have gotten myself into. I just can't imagine it. It's so childish though, but if there are women out there a lot older than me fanning over this, then I guess it's alright that I'm doing it...at least for now.
I know I say that I read and such but this is like my pasttime. Whenever I get really bored, what else do I have to do but watch dramas or listen to their music or watch their videos. I know in a year or two (since I already feel my obsession going away) that I'll look back on these years and thing "WTF was I thinking?" I mean they're very girly guys...but I've come to terms with the fact that they are Japanese and that I will accept the fact that that's just how they act. It's so weird to be able to be used to something so manly and now I can accept the fact that guys can be so girly and yet be straight, and that they're not even metro. They're just straight but it's just how their culture is.
I still don't know what I'm thinking trying to learn a language aside from the two I already know. I don't know if I actually want to learn Chinese and Japanese and even Korean, along with Spanish, and Frech. Oh yea, I am going to learn these languages one way or another. I don't know how but when I get the opportunity, I'm going to grab it and I would love to do it. I know that at the moment I'm limited at what I can do and that I can only do so much to be able to learn, but I will go to these countries one day and I will learn them there. I know that submersion into a culture is the only way to learn their ways and obviously their language. So that is what I plan to do.
But moving from that. I wonder if I look back in 10 years if I'll think...Sakurai Sho or Yamashita Tomohisa were the cutest Japanese guys ever but they were soooo far away. I guess I could have had ***** if he had me, however, we're just friends. I wonder if I'll even remember this Japanese obsession I have right now. Technically it's not an obsession. I guess I started that when I started asking my mother to buy me Arashi stuff and when my friends started giving me News and Arashi magazines, but it's alright.
It won't ever happen, but if I were ever to meet one of them, I don't think I could actually admit to them that I was a fan of theirs. I feel like such a fangirl, fangirling over boys who were so out of reach. Out of reach meaning, celebrities that you just had dreams of sometimes. And it didn't even involve anything special, just everyday life. Something like going to school or just hanging out. Either way, were I ever to meet one of them, or any Johnny that I ever liked, I don't think I could say "I had such a crush on you back then, I don't know why but I just thought you were hot" or "I loved it when you took your shirt off, you had such a great body" or worse, "Yea you were a phone charm for me once" I don't know why but I think that it's embarrassing to admit that you were once a fangirl.
I mean I know it's okay to admit that when you're in America and the thing you're obsessing over is here...but the thing I'm currently into are Japanese Pop Idols. I mean really now. It's kind of strange to think about it but I think that in the distant future, I just have a feeling that I might just meet one of them. I don't know who it will be, but it'll be by coincidence and that I might haver forgotten completely who they are...but I might be happy to meet them. See, I sound like a fangirl. I'm fantasizing the day I meet one...but by then I'm sure they just won't be that popular anymore. I mean, when I think of it, i'm thinking like when I'm around 50...They can't possibly still be idols by then.
So now what? As much as I *heart* them, and I know I've said this before, I don't know how much more I can take, watching their concerts, their tv performances, downloading their music (because I have no money to buy any of it), and looking through pictures of them in magazines, it's all fun and all but one day I'll have to grow up. Especially this coming semester and this coming year. But then again, when I actually think about it, it's the Johnny's (and no lie) that help me through my school. Whenever I can't take anymore and I just want to get away, it's all I watch to take my mind off things, even if it's just for a short while.
Call me dumb, but I'm happy that I stumbled upon this whole Japanese thing. If not...I don't know what kind of phase I would have gotten myself into. I just can't imagine it. It's so childish though, but if there are women out there a lot older than me fanning over this, then I guess it's alright that I'm doing it...at least for now.