death of a friend
Eddy Payne passed away this past Sunday after a nearly decade long fight with cancer. Eddy was one of those persons whom immediately after meeting you knew would be a great friend and that he was someone you'd never lose as a friend thereafter. he was absolutely a charming pleasant person. watching him fight cancer for years now really took a toll on things as it was hard to even talk with him via any means without wanting to ask about it and how he was doing and despite his cheerful demeanor about such i just wanted to say out loud to him how much i hated the fact that this was happening. he'd "beat it" they'd say and then it'd come right back. three times!
i hated it then and now even more so. i always tried not to bring the subject up because i didn't want to bring him down. cancer finally brought him down so today i say fuck you cancer!
i haven't been able to see him in person nor several people (Wendy - her hubby and my friend Joel "Mr. P", Dalas and Devon are amongst my LJ readers) that i moved away from after leaving CA for several years now.. the fact that i haven't seen him since 2002 hurts but more so now that my next time in which i see him it won't be him rather his memorial site. let me once again say fuck you cancer!
goodbye Eddy. your friendship is one that i will always love having had in my lifetime. i'll always love you as your friend.
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one thing to note is that as of the 14th i re-entered the world of Stanford's Folding@home project. since re-joining last Tuesday i have climbed over one million ranks and shall continue to climb as five processor (two GPU and three CPU) cores in my household attempt to find cures through Folding/mis-Folding proteins. hopefully in time things like cancer won't be an issue through this effort and all other scientific endeavors in the future.
here's a snip about the Folding@home purpose: Accurate simulations of protein folding and misfolding enable the scientific community to better understand the development of many diseases, including sickle-cell disease (drepanocytosis), Alzheimer's disease, Parkinson's disease, mad cow disease, cancer, Huntington's disease, cystic fibrosis, osteogenesis imperfecta, alpha 1-antitrypsin deficiency, and other aggregation-related diseases.
read more here.
i hated it then and now even more so. i always tried not to bring the subject up because i didn't want to bring him down. cancer finally brought him down so today i say fuck you cancer!
i haven't been able to see him in person nor several people (Wendy - her hubby and my friend Joel "Mr. P", Dalas and Devon are amongst my LJ readers) that i moved away from after leaving CA for several years now.. the fact that i haven't seen him since 2002 hurts but more so now that my next time in which i see him it won't be him rather his memorial site. let me once again say fuck you cancer!
goodbye Eddy. your friendship is one that i will always love having had in my lifetime. i'll always love you as your friend.
--
one thing to note is that as of the 14th i re-entered the world of Stanford's Folding@home project. since re-joining last Tuesday i have climbed over one million ranks and shall continue to climb as five processor (two GPU and three CPU) cores in my household attempt to find cures through Folding/mis-Folding proteins. hopefully in time things like cancer won't be an issue through this effort and all other scientific endeavors in the future.
here's a snip about the Folding@home purpose: Accurate simulations of protein folding and misfolding enable the scientific community to better understand the development of many diseases, including sickle-cell disease (drepanocytosis), Alzheimer's disease, Parkinson's disease, mad cow disease, cancer, Huntington's disease, cystic fibrosis, osteogenesis imperfecta, alpha 1-antitrypsin deficiency, and other aggregation-related diseases.
read more here.