solipsistic heightener

[diksa]

expanding belly
fleshy watery girth
be in bed by nine
no more smoky venues
no more refined sugar
caffeine withdrawal behind me
solipsistic heightener
slithering delirium
moments bruise and bleed
how do you tolerate my psychosis
you who do anything to make me happy
scrubbing the floor as if you saw the dirt that threatened to rip my mind apart
content just to be near, skin shivering under fingertips
i love you
i need you
i gave up needing people at age 6 and it scares the shit out of me
its not fair that i test your endurance
i will try harder
at least you get to enjoy my new porn star breasts