Oct 18, 2006 12:44
Pratipaksa Bhavana
Making a more conscious choice where to shine the light of your attention.
as difficult as my childhood was i think it was the greatest gift i was given.
i look at mathew my step son and find it almost impossible to believe that at his age (8) i was left alone for days at a time. no one ever made me dinner or helped me with well anything. i don't ever remember feeling sorry for myself. each day was an adventure. an opportunity to learn to trust in my ability to take care of myself. sure i made lots of mistakes and still do on occassion but for the most part things just seem to work out for me. when you never had a safety net you learn not to fall pretty quick.
the only time life gets difficult or complicated is when i forget to focus on the positive and see the beauty in people and the world.
i can't remember ever feeling good thinking negative thoughts or gossiping about other people. i would like to be able to say i have never done it but i can't. sure it feels good for about a minute and there can be some sense of ego based comraderie but that is transitory at best. some of you probably just chalk it up to human nature but i think we have conscious choice. yeah it takes some practice to make it a habit, but it can be done.