When did my life become a soap opera??
So I really like Lauren… she’s fun, she’s hot, I have a good time with her… but somehow I don’t see myself falling for this girl. Its small things-she can be very sarcastic all the time, which is funny, but… I dunno. She’ very belligerent when drunk (funny story about this soon), and she’s always playing the devil’s advocate-none of which is bad… but, again, I’m starting to see that I won’t be falling in love with his girl.
The weird part is that I still want to keep seeing her. And I really want to jump her every time I see her. And, long term, I want to be friends with her. We haven’t yet talked about what we “Are” or what, exactly we’re “Doing” which is fine with me. But I suppose we’re kind of “friends with benefits” which is not a situation I ever foresaw my self being in. Weird. I def want to keep the friendship, though, so I suppose someday we should talk about it.
And a part of me is like “well if you don’t see this going anywhere serious, maybe you should break it off” and the rest of me is like “but I’m having fun! And she is too!” So we’ll see. I haven’t seen her since Sat. night, though. I decided I needed some space to sort out this weird feeling I was having, which I believe I have… I’ll keep you all posted.
I think, also, I’m feeling strange because I still really like Adelia. Fuck. On the one hand there’s a girl I REEEEEALY like, who loves my friendship, but isn’t interested in more. On the other hand is a girl I like who is into me. Fucking fuck fuck fuck. I really don’t know what to do about the situation… But the ball is in Adelia’s court. At least I talked to her before I met Lauren, so I knew that Adelia wasn’t interested. And now, if anything is going to happen Adelia knows where I stand and it’s up to her to change her mind. If she does. And, while I hope she does, I’m not expecting it. :-/
In other news I love my job.
I decorated two of the trees that we got it-a magenta and a white of the two foot tall trees. I decided that, using my art major skills, maybe they’d look better decorated and entice people to buy them. It kinda worked-we sold out of some of the ornaments, but not the trees. Well on Friday I was working a rush on Dreg (The downstairs register) when Amanda-a supervisor-got on the head set saying “Laura, there’s a guy up here waking around with one of your decorated trees…” I about died. He asked if he could buy the display tree. Amanda was like “Ummm… I can get you all the different components that make up the display tree…” and he said no, he wanted *that* tree. So they sold it to him. He told them to send his compliments to the person who decorated it. I giggled all night.
Then I bought a tree (white) and some decorations (Magenta and silver disco balls, magenta garland, blue and magenta bells) to decorate it with because my parents decided that they weren’t going to get a tree this year-they’re doing some construction and it’s a bit cramped with all the stuff they had to move out of the rooms they’re re-doing. I was like “No!! You have to have a tree!!” so I bought one. I was hoping that it’d be hideous enough that they’d be motivated to never skip buying a tree again… instead my grandma asked me to buy and decorate one for her. So I bought her a white one and some nicer decorations… and when Robyn saw it she asked me to buy one for *her*!! I think my plan backfired.
OK so on Sat. night, when we were leaving the 90’s me and the two friends of Lauren’s that she came with had to practically hold Lauren up-she’d had a lot to drink. But when she found out that Sex World was near by and open 24 hours a day she got all excited and wanted to go there. I was like “honey, you don’t want to go there. You want to go to the Smitten Kitten…” but she was like “I don’t want to go there to *buy* anything!! I want to go there to yell at everyone there and working there!! They’re supporting post-feminist culture, which isn’t feminist at all but actually persuades women to exploit themselves and other women!!” except she said it very rambly and drunk and not that articulately. Anyway, one of the friends was like “I want to go see the woman in the boxes who strip for you.” To which Lauren got mad-again for exploiting women. She said “If you want to see a naked woman, I’ll strip for you.” “You?” said the friend. “I’ll take my clothes off for anyone, as long as they don’t have a scrotum!” OMG I about died of laughing.
Also I learned that Lauren usually dates women who are more butch than her-women who are butch to the point of often being drag kings or gender queer or both. In fact her current roommate, a straight guy, was the first woman she was ever involved with. I was like “So we’re both trying something a little different, aren’t we?”
Even if she’s not the love of my life I’ll still miss her when she goes to Peru.
The weird part is that I still want to keep seeing her. And I really want to jump her every time I see her. And, long term, I want to be friends with her. We haven’t yet talked about what we “Are” or what, exactly we’re “Doing” which is fine with me. But I suppose we’re kind of “friends with benefits” which is not a situation I ever foresaw my self being in. Weird. I def want to keep the friendship, though, so I suppose someday we should talk about it.
And a part of me is like “well if you don’t see this going anywhere serious, maybe you should break it off” and the rest of me is like “but I’m having fun! And she is too!” So we’ll see. I haven’t seen her since Sat. night, though. I decided I needed some space to sort out this weird feeling I was having, which I believe I have… I’ll keep you all posted.
I think, also, I’m feeling strange because I still really like Adelia. Fuck. On the one hand there’s a girl I REEEEEALY like, who loves my friendship, but isn’t interested in more. On the other hand is a girl I like who is into me. Fucking fuck fuck fuck. I really don’t know what to do about the situation… But the ball is in Adelia’s court. At least I talked to her before I met Lauren, so I knew that Adelia wasn’t interested. And now, if anything is going to happen Adelia knows where I stand and it’s up to her to change her mind. If she does. And, while I hope she does, I’m not expecting it. :-/
In other news I love my job.
I decorated two of the trees that we got it-a magenta and a white of the two foot tall trees. I decided that, using my art major skills, maybe they’d look better decorated and entice people to buy them. It kinda worked-we sold out of some of the ornaments, but not the trees. Well on Friday I was working a rush on Dreg (The downstairs register) when Amanda-a supervisor-got on the head set saying “Laura, there’s a guy up here waking around with one of your decorated trees…” I about died. He asked if he could buy the display tree. Amanda was like “Ummm… I can get you all the different components that make up the display tree…” and he said no, he wanted *that* tree. So they sold it to him. He told them to send his compliments to the person who decorated it. I giggled all night.
Then I bought a tree (white) and some decorations (Magenta and silver disco balls, magenta garland, blue and magenta bells) to decorate it with because my parents decided that they weren’t going to get a tree this year-they’re doing some construction and it’s a bit cramped with all the stuff they had to move out of the rooms they’re re-doing. I was like “No!! You have to have a tree!!” so I bought one. I was hoping that it’d be hideous enough that they’d be motivated to never skip buying a tree again… instead my grandma asked me to buy and decorate one for her. So I bought her a white one and some nicer decorations… and when Robyn saw it she asked me to buy one for *her*!! I think my plan backfired.
OK so on Sat. night, when we were leaving the 90’s me and the two friends of Lauren’s that she came with had to practically hold Lauren up-she’d had a lot to drink. But when she found out that Sex World was near by and open 24 hours a day she got all excited and wanted to go there. I was like “honey, you don’t want to go there. You want to go to the Smitten Kitten…” but she was like “I don’t want to go there to *buy* anything!! I want to go there to yell at everyone there and working there!! They’re supporting post-feminist culture, which isn’t feminist at all but actually persuades women to exploit themselves and other women!!” except she said it very rambly and drunk and not that articulately. Anyway, one of the friends was like “I want to go see the woman in the boxes who strip for you.” To which Lauren got mad-again for exploiting women. She said “If you want to see a naked woman, I’ll strip for you.” “You?” said the friend. “I’ll take my clothes off for anyone, as long as they don’t have a scrotum!” OMG I about died of laughing.
Also I learned that Lauren usually dates women who are more butch than her-women who are butch to the point of often being drag kings or gender queer or both. In fact her current roommate, a straight guy, was the first woman she was ever involved with. I was like “So we’re both trying something a little different, aren’t we?”
Even if she’s not the love of my life I’ll still miss her when she goes to Peru.