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I just realized that I didn't think this through at all.
How ridiculous of me. I've always hated myself for procrastinating every decision, but now I realize I've probably just made my first large imppulsive large decision, and now I'm feeling like I can't do this at all.
I just feel a little trapped, is all. And panicky and frightened and sad and remorseful and ridiculous.
And not really those things, but those are the closest words I could think of. Whoever decided that we need words for these things was an idiot.
But I suppose this impulsiveness moved things forward. In the last 3 years, I think Jason was the only new thing that has been in my life. Change is good?
What?
I think I want to buy the Chappelle show.
That's all I suppose.
I won't lie to you. I miss my cat a lot, and when people say "home" to me, this place doesn't immediately come to mind.
How ridiculous of me. I've always hated myself for procrastinating every decision, but now I realize I've probably just made my first large imppulsive large decision, and now I'm feeling like I can't do this at all.
I just feel a little trapped, is all. And panicky and frightened and sad and remorseful and ridiculous.
And not really those things, but those are the closest words I could think of. Whoever decided that we need words for these things was an idiot.
But I suppose this impulsiveness moved things forward. In the last 3 years, I think Jason was the only new thing that has been in my life. Change is good?
What?
I think I want to buy the Chappelle show.
That's all I suppose.
I won't lie to you. I miss my cat a lot, and when people say "home" to me, this place doesn't immediately come to mind.