understandable

[dijkster]

My mom keeps making me move furniture and clean.
I don't mind so much, I just want to be doing this kind of thing for myself. You know, moving furniture for where you want it to go. For your personal living.
Sean thinks I should move out with him and Enver.
I can see that being really bad.
Yet a lot of fun.
And a bad idea.
And so much fun.
I'm kind of losing track of everything.
I'm ignoring my Grandparents, which is a bad idea, because they are funding a large part of my school...ing.
But but but, they are so scary.
I also am ignoring calls from my students.
I don't know why.
I just am terrible.
And I ignore my Dad, because I know he will tell me to stop ignoring my Grandparents. So ignoring him is just another step in ignoring them.
Will it never end?
I wish I could stop time.
Then I could ignore people, but time wouldn't pass so I wouldn't need to feel guilty.
I'd just be sitting. With no time passing.
Sometimes passing time overwhelms me.
But it seems that everything overwhelms me, so that really isn't a big deal.
I guess.