I can't keep going on this way.
"I'd rather be hated for who I am, than loved for who I am not." - Kurt Cobain.
I want to consider that quote true. I would rather be hated for who I am than loved for being someone else. And then you can ask yourself the question, "Why is she acting like this all of a sudden?" I got a heavy dose of reality kicked into my veins yesterday. I learnt that someone who was supposedly my best friend was really bitching about me all this time. Do you know how much that hurts? Most likely, because most of you have probably had it done to you as well. But the thing which striked me was that I have known her since primary school and thought that she was different to the rest of the bitchy girls. Well, I was wrong. Once again. Though it has taught me some valuable lessons: Never give people too much trust straight away; make them earn it. You have got to do things for yourself, fuck what the others think. And nothing is what it seems. Of course, I am hurt by what was said because really, I do not think I deserved it. But hey... who am I to judge? If people want to bitch about me, then fair enough. I just did not think my 'best friend' would.
"You cannot kill what you did not create." - Duality by Slipknot.
What gives other people the right to think that they can try and control someone else's life, and think that they will not get caught? That, I do not understand. And the same goes for bitching. What makes people think that they can bitch about someone else and not get caught? Because in the end, it will come back and bite you on the ass hard. So just because you think you have got away with bitching about someone else for so long, does not mean that you will never get caught... because you will. You might as well go up to them and tell that person what you feel and why. If you do not give a reason, then you would probably get hunted down and killed. Not literally, of course. Although you will never know how that person is feeling at the time. I guess if they are rather happy, even though you did tell them what you think of them, they could let it slide... for a few days. Remember kids, do not bitch about someone and think you will not get caught, because you will.
"Talk to the mirror, choke back tears. And keep telling yourself that, 'I'm a Diva!'"- There's A Good Reason Why These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought Of It Yet by Panic! At The Disco.
In other news, I have upgraded my video software. I have been testing out a few effects and what not, just to get used to it. I think it is pretty simple to use when you understand what each little icon means and what it actually does. Though it might take me a little while to figure it all out, I am sure that I will be fine. Of course, I still have Windows Movie Maker incase anything goes wrong, which I hope it will not. I still have some Ric Flair videos to be downloaded and then I shall start making the tribute video. I still cannot think of a song to use though. So any suggestions would be welcomed. I need some options at least, and then I could start thinking about one or two songs to use properly. Hopefully things will go well in the video. I hate it when I lose creativity when making a video, and then have to take a few days off from editing it, etc. Until next time all, be safe and have fun. Toodles!