A day when nothing goes right
I don't think it is possible for me to be any more depressed and disappointed than I am at this very moment. (that's probably not entirely true, but it doesn't feel possible at this very moment) I'm just so sad..... :-(
Situation #1) My little Boogie Buddy hates me: I don't know what to do, or what to think; but every time I try to help him when he gets frustrated with homework, or other situations going on around him, he lashes out at me. Tonight, he straight up told me that he hates me.
After dinner, he was supposed to start working on homework. He was acting out, because we had company for dinner, and was being mean to his mom and sister instead of working on his homework like he was supposed to be doing. I calmly wrapped myself around him and tried to give him a hug, hoping to help calm him down and let him know that I was there to support him. Instead, he lashed out at me and turned the hug into an opportunity to start a mock fight; which at first he was only using as a nother destraction to keep from having to start on his homework. And, when I refused to let him act out in that manner, he got angry and started really trying to hurt me. Then the name calling started.
I hate seeing him this way, and I just don't know what to do. I love my son, but when in front of his sister, mother, and other people here at the house... he wants to turn everything into a power struggle. I expected some of this when he reached about 13 years old, but not when he's only 8.
His actions tonight broke my heart. Sincerely.
Situation #2) I Dream of Leather
For years, I have dreamed of buying Karen a sexy black leather skirt; but leather skirts and pants had started to lose popularity right about the time when karen and I first started dating. You would occasionally see someone wearing one now and then, but they weren't the fashion staple that they had been in the late 80's and through most of the 90's. Between around 1999 to around 2001, pleather had made a brief popularity surge as youung pop stars such as Brittney Spears and Christina Aguilera wore similar items in some of their music videos and TV appearances; but that faded out far too quickly for my preference.
Finally, the resurgence of leather started to make appearances in 2012. Everything from classy and stylish leather skirts and dresses to elegant leather pants could be seen on fashion runways in Paris, London, and even NY. Then it spread to the red carpet on stars of both television and the big screen. The fashion trend was starting to catch on again, and started showing up in fashion catalogs and online clothing lines for both mainstream and plus size ranges. By the time the summer fashion predictions for 2013 were being made in magazines such as Vogue and the like, the term "must have item for Fall 2012 and Winter 2013 were entering the vernacular of nearly every fashion review.
I started scanning the internet for plaus size leather fashions. Primarily leather skirts. I found many that I like, but so many of them are way out of my price range of affordability. Leather skirts and dresses are appearing in almost every high fashion lineup, and I knew it was only a matter of time before the more affordable clothing catalogs started carrying versions of their own leather skirt. I ordered a pleather mini-skirt from Lane Bryant late last summer, but it turned out to be constructed with leather front and back panels, with black spandex like material on the sides. The skirt looks great on karen, but she hasn't even so much as tried to put it on once since the first time she tried it on the day it arrived. I just figured it wasn't classy enough for her to want to wear out, so I continued my search for something nicer.
For the longest time, I had kept my eye on a specific skirt from the Jessica London collection. High quality leather, put together well, and fully lined for comfort; but initially, the skirt was originally selling for nearly $180. Then, this past fall, the skirt was priced down to $99.99, and was available for purchase through Amazon Prime; meaning that there would be no tax and no shipping cost. But by the time I had saved up enough to purchase it, they were out of the black skirts in size 18, adn the chocolate brown just didn't look the same. Then, just after the new year, this year's model of the skirt was marketed on their catalog web site; and even though it was a new skirt and a new year, they kept it marked at the sale price from the previous model year's skirt due to popular and high demand. With a skirt that was selling out this popular with the brand line, I figured it had to be exactly what I was searching for. Nearly all of the reviews were 4 and 5 stars.
So... I finally cashed in some of my hard earned award points that I have earned from work, and made my purchase on February 4th. After 12 years of wanting to see karen in a nice quality, sexy, black, leather skirt, it was finally going to happen. The skirt arrived today, while i was at work, and I envisioned seeing her try it on all afternoon.
Unfortunately, the skirt did not fit at all the way that it looked on the model in the catalog. Karen hated it before she had even removed it from the bag. Too long, too big, plastic button in the front. And, even I had to admit, that it did not look the way that a well fitting leather skirt should look. I felt like a tire that had just had every bit of air let out of me. Flat and useless. What a disappointment. I really wanted her to have that leather skirt.... and I wanted her to do things to ME while she wore it. Now I don't know what to do. It's heart breaking.