repost from my myspace
I dont know whats going on lately. I have come to the conclusion that I really dont have friends that I can depend on. This isnt one person specifically. This is ust what i am feeling right now.
I just gets very upsetting that time and time agian when I want to have a friend/friends over, no one can make it. Its not always timing, because how can weekend after weekend just be bad timing.
I was thinking mybe its just ME? I dont think its the truth. I am nothing but a good friend to anyone. I am always there for people, constantly willing to help others.
I know that people are busy, i understand and respect that, because I've been there. I just dont understand how its always me, why am I always sitting here hoping people show up, buying things to have people drink and eat, making my home nice for people to come over and feel comfortable? And yet no one ever shows.
I always hear that this is the reason or that is the reason, but then I turn around and find out others are having get togethers and people are there. I go over to parties or go out with friends when they ask, but its never returned.
I just think that its time to REALLY find out who is reliable and who isnt, because I cant take this anymore. I wont take being let down every time I try and get together with people.
Im done, I'm sad, I'm feeling really let down. Im not mad, I have no feeling of anger towards anyone, I'm just really hurt.
The End.
I just gets very upsetting that time and time agian when I want to have a friend/friends over, no one can make it. Its not always timing, because how can weekend after weekend just be bad timing.
I was thinking mybe its just ME? I dont think its the truth. I am nothing but a good friend to anyone. I am always there for people, constantly willing to help others.
I know that people are busy, i understand and respect that, because I've been there. I just dont understand how its always me, why am I always sitting here hoping people show up, buying things to have people drink and eat, making my home nice for people to come over and feel comfortable? And yet no one ever shows.
I always hear that this is the reason or that is the reason, but then I turn around and find out others are having get togethers and people are there. I go over to parties or go out with friends when they ask, but its never returned.
I just think that its time to REALLY find out who is reliable and who isnt, because I cant take this anymore. I wont take being let down every time I try and get together with people.
Im done, I'm sad, I'm feeling really let down. Im not mad, I have no feeling of anger towards anyone, I'm just really hurt.
The End.