Dear Self:
Things have sucked lately haven’t they? Living in Wharton, because you and your brother aren’t allowed in the house when such chaos is fluttering about, and minding stupid drama, via live journal, and dumb message boards. Things used to be easier. Used to be, whenever I had a problem, I wouldn’t say anything, and things were easier that way, like say for Mallory’s sake: I shouldn’t have said anything concerning Gary. If she wanted to go out with him, we warned her, and then maybe I should give him the benefit of the doubt. Maybe he really does love Mallory, or maybe he was just troubled. I’m sorry I hated him just because he had sex with three of my friends; Erika, Jaime and Sam. I’m sorry that I really didn’t tell him to his face, and had to write it on a message board, because I didn’t really think of telling him, until it was already over, and he’d kidnapped Mallory and Tina from the show. I guess I judged him, and no, im not saying it’s regret. He could be a bad person, but for the time being, if he makes Mallory happy, then that’s all that matters. This is Senior Year. The last year we are going to be together. We should make the most of it. Instead of fighting over live journal, and message boards and stuff. This, when I really think about it, is so freshman year. I remember when my best friends used to really be my best friends , when we wouldn’t fight, and we would fantasize about dating older boys, and play Barbie’s and Darth Vader and just fuck around Lake Shawnee. It was funny, me drinking spit to make Mal laugh, because she was having a shitty day, and making Cynthia throw up, and Tony thinking that we were sisters or twins or something. And us always making fun of freshman/or middle school girls, that we once were. I’m sorry for judging people. Maybe Mallory’s boyfriend isn’t as gay as everyone claims him to be. I’ve made bad choices just as Mallory might, or might not be. I’m stopping all this stupid drama. I hate not talking, and having to pretend that Mallory isn’t there, and walking past, I hate Gonter, for the time being, because he had to go tell everyone I wanted to kill Gary or whatever, when in fact, that’s not what I technically said. So, I’m stopping this Gay drama, that I inadvertently started myself. and with this all being said, it obvious, that this entry isn’t to myself, its to Mallory. Take Gary to prom if you will. You can even go to prom weekend with us, even though I think your taking Nick, come to prom weekend with us. Comment.