anniversary
it'll be our one year anniversary soon--one year of living here and one year of me going crazy about it. it's even harder now with sylvia here, meaning that i hate it even more not that it's actually harder.
if the kitchen is a mess it's no longer annoying because it's messy, it's annoying because i have to wash her bottles in that sink and it's disgusting.
sometimes i'm suprised at how neurotic being a mother has made me but every cliche they tell you about parenthood is true and it was gradual, too. it took me nine months to get like this, very slowly. i started to nest a lot, especially in the last 3 months and since we don't have our own 'nest' i spent a lot of time being upset about our living situation and crying profusely about it.
now there isn't so much of the crying, just the desire to get out. i've gone to walmart 3 times this week and it's only wednesday.
i also toyed around with the idea of staying with my mom for a week or two after she gets back from spain. i know after awhile it would still be just as annoying as being here(if not more,) but it would be great to see everyone and be away from alan's parents some.
if the kitchen is a mess it's no longer annoying because it's messy, it's annoying because i have to wash her bottles in that sink and it's disgusting.
sometimes i'm suprised at how neurotic being a mother has made me but every cliche they tell you about parenthood is true and it was gradual, too. it took me nine months to get like this, very slowly. i started to nest a lot, especially in the last 3 months and since we don't have our own 'nest' i spent a lot of time being upset about our living situation and crying profusely about it.
now there isn't so much of the crying, just the desire to get out. i've gone to walmart 3 times this week and it's only wednesday.
i also toyed around with the idea of staying with my mom for a week or two after she gets back from spain. i know after awhile it would still be just as annoying as being here(if not more,) but it would be great to see everyone and be away from alan's parents some.