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i have so many emotions i can't even describe right now.
i feel so awful.
and awkward.
and uncomfortable.
i really think i have problems.
i don't know what's wrong with me lately.
i swear i'm not a teenager.
i'm either 12 or 30.
but either way it doesn't matter because i don't know how to have fun.
i don't know why i have friends or why anyone would want to be with me.
because i'm boring and cautious.
god this is so obnoxious.
i hate lj and i hate being emo.
but i'm writing in it and i'm being more than emo.
nutshelling it:
tonight didn't turn out the way i hoped it would.
it never turns out the way i hope it will.
and it's always because of me.
i feel so awful.
and awkward.
and uncomfortable.
i really think i have problems.
i don't know what's wrong with me lately.
i swear i'm not a teenager.
i'm either 12 or 30.
but either way it doesn't matter because i don't know how to have fun.
i don't know why i have friends or why anyone would want to be with me.
because i'm boring and cautious.
god this is so obnoxious.
i hate lj and i hate being emo.
but i'm writing in it and i'm being more than emo.
nutshelling it:
tonight didn't turn out the way i hoped it would.
it never turns out the way i hope it will.
and it's always because of me.