Thanks...I think?

[digitall]

Isn't it nice when you've done extremely well at getting over someone and it no longer gets to you and you think you can be really good friends and then they answer a question like "do you miss an ex" with "yes, but not you Scott"? I've been doing so fucking good at getting over everything and thought things were going well and then I read that. She's kept me so damn confused with everything. Some days we are great...we talk a lot and I really think we have the chance to be good friends like I would love and other days she is disgusted at the thought of me and doesn't want to talk in any form. I've dealt with all of this though. I won't IM first, don't call, nothing. If she wants to talk then great, we will, and if not I've finally gotten over the shitty feelings that came with her not wanting to be associated with me.

I'm constantly left in the dark with how she feels though. How she really feels though. I never can truly tell and it drives me crazy. I want to be friends, I really really do. But friendship to me isn't something that you use when you want and ignore/toss away any semblance of when you feel you don't need it anymore. I think we could handle being friends too. I'm over her as a potential girlfriend, etc. Have been for a good amount of time really. We weren't compatible and in hindsight I can see this. Hindsight is a bitch. We could be compatible as friends though if I could just figure out what she really wants. I'll do whatever that is but leaving me in the dark and completely confused makes everything so much harder.....