urgh. or, why I'm not in the local fandom.
I don't know what's with me these days. I don't really want to do anything. I have no hobbies besides listening to the same songs day after day. I don't have any friends, and I don't really care either. I don't want to go out, I don't want to move.
So, in case anyone doesn't know this, I'm a huge Kanjani8 fan these days. I've gone from fandom to fandom -- just look at my list of interests on my profile, and I've deleted a lot through the years. Sometimes I feel bad because I never comment, and the people who friended me probably have no idea what I'm usually talking about (plus, horrifying grammar), but I like reading everyone's journals. Stalkerish, but I still feel like I know some parts of them.
That is not the reason why I'm writing this. So, Kanjani8 fan. I participate in English fandom more, but my Chinese/Mandarin is much better than my English.
Sometimes, I think I might have had things easier if I was in the Chinese fandom. Most people seem to find translations easy, there are more than one fansub group for each group (think Arashi right now), I just need to figure out how to use forums and get in them. And somehow post random junk (omg thanks!!!!11) everyday.
But I think this is the first time I felt disgusted by Taiwanese fans.
So I'm a slasher by heart. I try not to, but when I see two pretty boys I think go well together, well. This is what they're selling anyway, and most of the time, when I think RPS, I'm not even think of the real person they are, but the image they're selling.
But I never understood the whole seme/uke CRAP. I became a slasher not because I saw someone else write a pairing and decided I like this, I became a shipper simply because I thought two characters had a possibility of falling in love. And yet, as a thirteen/fourteen years old, I searched the Internet and came upon all this seme/uke crap.
WTF? Seriously? WTF? What in the world is the appeal of a girl in a boy's outfit? Is this some sort of gender disorder? You can't imagine two people together unless one's a boy and one's a girl, at least mentally? And by girl, I mean STEREOTYPICALLY GIRLY. Girls, is this you looking down on your own gender in a twisted sense? WHY CAN'T IT JUST BE TWO PEOPLE FALLING IN LOVE?
This is the case for EVERY SINGLE PAIRING EXISTING.
And for some reason, in a fandom, there are only set pairings, even if none is canon. It's like people check the Internet for which pairing is more popular first, and go, okay, I'd ship that. Then they check which one plays the girl and go, okay, I'd THINK OF HIM AS A GIRL FROM NOW ON.
So I got into English fandom. Things were slightly better. There are still people into the whole s/u crap, but at least not everyone is like that.
But I still follow some large forums for major news. They're public places, even if EVERYONE IS INTO THE SAME PAIRING LIKE ROBOTS, they don't talk about it (apparently, it's forbidden to talk about slashing in public), and I can pretend to fit in. Until I checked a Kanjani8 (a BOYband. all male.) thread, and GUESS WHAT?
Two people were somewhat close, and everyone went, OMG THEY'RE SUCH A CUTE PAIR OF SISTERS.
What the FUCK? I don't even. WHAT THE FUCK?
I understand that in your world, every pairing has to fit into seme/uke roles, regardless of where the fuck they come from. I understand that you support pairings I see nothing in, I can somewhat accept that you think of one as a girl. BUT YOU DO NOT GET TO JUST SAY THAT LIKE IT'S THE NORM OF THE WORLD.
And yes, I like the idea of those two together. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT?
I've hated Taiwanese fandom for a long time. Sometimes, I come to accept it, then resent it again. THIS IS POSSIBLY THE FIRST TIME I'M SIMPLY DISGUSTED.
So, in case anyone doesn't know this, I'm a huge Kanjani8 fan these days. I've gone from fandom to fandom -- just look at my list of interests on my profile, and I've deleted a lot through the years. Sometimes I feel bad because I never comment, and the people who friended me probably have no idea what I'm usually talking about (plus, horrifying grammar), but I like reading everyone's journals. Stalkerish, but I still feel like I know some parts of them.
That is not the reason why I'm writing this. So, Kanjani8 fan. I participate in English fandom more, but my Chinese/Mandarin is much better than my English.
Sometimes, I think I might have had things easier if I was in the Chinese fandom. Most people seem to find translations easy, there are more than one fansub group for each group (think Arashi right now), I just need to figure out how to use forums and get in them. And somehow post random junk (omg thanks!!!!11) everyday.
But I think this is the first time I felt disgusted by Taiwanese fans.
So I'm a slasher by heart. I try not to, but when I see two pretty boys I think go well together, well. This is what they're selling anyway, and most of the time, when I think RPS, I'm not even think of the real person they are, but the image they're selling.
But I never understood the whole seme/uke CRAP. I became a slasher not because I saw someone else write a pairing and decided I like this, I became a shipper simply because I thought two characters had a possibility of falling in love. And yet, as a thirteen/fourteen years old, I searched the Internet and came upon all this seme/uke crap.
WTF? Seriously? WTF? What in the world is the appeal of a girl in a boy's outfit? Is this some sort of gender disorder? You can't imagine two people together unless one's a boy and one's a girl, at least mentally? And by girl, I mean STEREOTYPICALLY GIRLY. Girls, is this you looking down on your own gender in a twisted sense? WHY CAN'T IT JUST BE TWO PEOPLE FALLING IN LOVE?
This is the case for EVERY SINGLE PAIRING EXISTING.
And for some reason, in a fandom, there are only set pairings, even if none is canon. It's like people check the Internet for which pairing is more popular first, and go, okay, I'd ship that. Then they check which one plays the girl and go, okay, I'd THINK OF HIM AS A GIRL FROM NOW ON.
So I got into English fandom. Things were slightly better. There are still people into the whole s/u crap, but at least not everyone is like that.
But I still follow some large forums for major news. They're public places, even if EVERYONE IS INTO THE SAME PAIRING LIKE ROBOTS, they don't talk about it (apparently, it's forbidden to talk about slashing in public), and I can pretend to fit in. Until I checked a Kanjani8 (a BOYband. all male.) thread, and GUESS WHAT?
Two people were somewhat close, and everyone went, OMG THEY'RE SUCH A CUTE PAIR OF SISTERS.
What the FUCK? I don't even. WHAT THE FUCK?
I understand that in your world, every pairing has to fit into seme/uke roles, regardless of where the fuck they come from. I understand that you support pairings I see nothing in, I can somewhat accept that you think of one as a girl. BUT YOU DO NOT GET TO JUST SAY THAT LIKE IT'S THE NORM OF THE WORLD.
And yes, I like the idea of those two together. WHAT'S WRONG WITH THAT?
I've hated Taiwanese fandom for a long time. Sometimes, I come to accept it, then resent it again. THIS IS POSSIBLY THE FIRST TIME I'M SIMPLY DISGUSTED.