Okay I'm not making any sense but hear me out,I have to get this off my chest

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I'm tired, and it's not just because of the late hour. I'm just tired of everything. It's like whenever I think things are going good, and whenever I feel like maybe everything can finally be okay, some shit has to happen, and I end up getting hurt. This time it's just me. It's not about him or anyone else, it's just about me and how I feel whenever something happens,or when something doesn't happen. I always daydream about how certain things will happen and when it doesn't happen at all,which is all the time,that's when I get hurt. But it's my fault. I shouldn't be doing that, cause I'm just setting myself up for disappointment right? It's my fault about this, and I don't have any right to feel sad or angry or depressed. But I do, and that's the problem. I have no right to feel any of those things because he never promised me anything, but I do feel them. I can't help the way I feel, and I'm not supposed to help the way I feel. It's not something you can control......
I dunno............................................................