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I am bored off my mind. Im tired but I cant sleep for some unknown reason. Bascially worked most of the day, making that extra cash lol. as a matter of fact they called me in this ENTIRE week to see if i could work. i turned them down once yesterday i got to work cause i got called in. man it was so slow, boring but like i said, im making that extra cash.
kelly texted me and i meant to call her but i fell asleep. i would call but maybe she's asleep, i dunno. (sorry) so i went back to sleep but then my freaking alarm clock rang and i could not get back to sleep. so here i am.
um.........oh yeah. i ended like anything that might be going on with Brandon. he's not my type at all. like he'd call me for five seconds and i never really got to know him on a level where i can say that i honestly liked him. and he said he wanted a serious relationship but im not really ready for another relationship just yet. david's out there exploring and so am i lol. plus like brandon would say that that's what he wanted but he never acted like it........................ i dont know and i hate to sound so heartless, but i dont really care. he was like, (well fine fuck the movies, fuck friday, fuck you.) right and people got surprised to hear i hung up on him? he's lucky that's all i did. whatever i just really dont care.
Omar asked me what i wanted for christmas, and i told him that what i wanted coudln't fit under the tree and he just about slapped me lmao. oh well.
speaking of christmas, man i have a long shopping list. eboni, juan, mami, papi, tio carlos, valeska, tia carmen, tio victor, carlos, valerie, danny, nicol, nicole, omar, adam, sasha, marsha, kelly of course.........ugh just a lot of people. hope i dont forget anyone.
No fair, Nicol gets to have a song i want one too. lol
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you