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Yesterday was one of those good pensive days.
Where you think a lot and it's good.
And you feel alright and some things click in your head.
Today was one of those weird, off days.
The kind where you think a lot and it's bad.
Like just gives you an all over icky feeling.
Yes, I said 'icky.'
I don't know how or why today was one of those days...
But it was.
Maybe it just sucks being bi-polar... because these are the things I can expect.
Day one- Swell. Day two- Shit. Day three- Decent. Day four- Crap. Day five- Barely made it. Day six- Not too bad. Day seven- Irritable.
And that's not the full extent. There are hundreds more possible outcomes and can come at any given time in NO particular order whatsoever.
It kind of sucks.
A lot.
Fuck... I can't WAIT for things to fall into place.
I can't wait until things settle.
And I can relax a little bit.
And start feeling better when I wake up and not dreading the day ahead of me... And then go to bed feeling alright about the day that just passed, and slightly looking forward to the one that's coming up.
Yeah, that'd be wonderful.
*Crosses fingers.*
I can dream...
Where you think a lot and it's good.
And you feel alright and some things click in your head.
Today was one of those weird, off days.
The kind where you think a lot and it's bad.
Like just gives you an all over icky feeling.
Yes, I said 'icky.'
I don't know how or why today was one of those days...
But it was.
Maybe it just sucks being bi-polar... because these are the things I can expect.
Day one- Swell. Day two- Shit. Day three- Decent. Day four- Crap. Day five- Barely made it. Day six- Not too bad. Day seven- Irritable.
And that's not the full extent. There are hundreds more possible outcomes and can come at any given time in NO particular order whatsoever.
It kind of sucks.
A lot.
Fuck... I can't WAIT for things to fall into place.
I can't wait until things settle.
And I can relax a little bit.
And start feeling better when I wake up and not dreading the day ahead of me... And then go to bed feeling alright about the day that just passed, and slightly looking forward to the one that's coming up.
Yeah, that'd be wonderful.
*Crosses fingers.*
I can dream...