I Finally Had Something to Say
25 minutes of her undoing followed by
24 hours of praying for my own ruin
After five years of being told I’m at a loss
A situation I cannot overcome because of an attitude to which I will not comply
How can you spit in the face of something so powerful?
Why is your ignorance based so greatly on pairs of lips?
The ego I don’t want is what you will try to force upon me
All because of the blood that runs through my veins
So this is my gift to you,
Four fingers collapsing in graceful unison, telling you to fuck yourself
While I wear the biggest smile the world has ever known
And I hope you do fuck yourself, because that smile has faded and you have won
You are victorious because I am fucking her and the smile has transformed into a grimace
The same one I always wear before I shred your ears and make your blood run cold
As I am doing now, letting out the scream that wreaks of the blackest death, as I am in her
And so I hope you fuck yourself royally
How easy it must be for you, to be living without a conscience
And while 18 years have passed, you seem to forget a decade
For I must be 8 in your eyes
Perhaps you do not understand the phrase “These Lips Are Sealed”
For when my lips are sealed, they are sewn shut out of honor and respect
Then again, the only lips you know are never sealed
To the one who means the most, know how sorry I am
I know that it is killing you
I know that it hurts beyond belief
I know that it is not justifiable
I know that you’ll play it over a billion times in your head
I know you’ll ponder it to no end
I know you’ll blame yourself for this
Don’t, because it isn’t your fault
If it were, everything above would mean nothing
And all of that was from the blackest, most southern part of my empty heart
Just know how important you are
And that you hold my heart in your hands
Love Always,
Judas
24 hours of praying for my own ruin
After five years of being told I’m at a loss
A situation I cannot overcome because of an attitude to which I will not comply
How can you spit in the face of something so powerful?
Why is your ignorance based so greatly on pairs of lips?
The ego I don’t want is what you will try to force upon me
All because of the blood that runs through my veins
So this is my gift to you,
Four fingers collapsing in graceful unison, telling you to fuck yourself
While I wear the biggest smile the world has ever known
And I hope you do fuck yourself, because that smile has faded and you have won
You are victorious because I am fucking her and the smile has transformed into a grimace
The same one I always wear before I shred your ears and make your blood run cold
As I am doing now, letting out the scream that wreaks of the blackest death, as I am in her
And so I hope you fuck yourself royally
How easy it must be for you, to be living without a conscience
And while 18 years have passed, you seem to forget a decade
For I must be 8 in your eyes
Perhaps you do not understand the phrase “These Lips Are Sealed”
For when my lips are sealed, they are sewn shut out of honor and respect
Then again, the only lips you know are never sealed
To the one who means the most, know how sorry I am
I know that it is killing you
I know that it hurts beyond belief
I know that it is not justifiable
I know that you’ll play it over a billion times in your head
I know you’ll ponder it to no end
I know you’ll blame yourself for this
Don’t, because it isn’t your fault
If it were, everything above would mean nothing
And all of that was from the blackest, most southern part of my empty heart
Just know how important you are
And that you hold my heart in your hands
Love Always,
Judas