i keep making these to-do lists, but nothing gets crossed out
Well if this is what my New Year looks like, there's a lot to be fixed already.
Since there's nowhere else to complain about this fucking horrid week, I'll do it here:
-my ex-girlfriend won't talk to me
-i got a parking ticket
-i'm taken for granted a lot of the time
-i rarely ever feel pretty
-one of my friends is going through horrible shit at home due to alcohol consumption
-i didn't get to see the dali exhibit because i'm fucking stupid and didn't call or check to see if i needed tickets beforehand.
-i lost my phone
Things are very chaotic among people close to me, and I'm trying to keep a cool head on my shoulders but once I'm alone everything releases and I'm just as crazy as anyone else. I've noticed that I can keep my feelings bottled up to an extent when I'm in front of other people but once I'm alone it's absolute hell to deal with. I do a lot of it to myself. I realize that I need to get out of here to get a little saner, which is what I'll be doing. But I'm so attached that I'm scared of what it'll be like in San Francisco. If I go to San Diego it's 2 hours away, no big. SF is 6 or 7 hours on a good day.
I'm thinking about trying to become vegetarian. For real this time. I just read Skinny Bitch on Thursday and it really made me see things a different way. We'll see how that goes. I had a chicken relapse last night but that's because there wasn't anything else and I wasn't home. I think the first step is giving up red meat, because I think I can do that pretty easily. I'm so accustomed to eating chicken though. It will be really hard.
Since there's nowhere else to complain about this fucking horrid week, I'll do it here:
-my ex-girlfriend won't talk to me
-i got a parking ticket
-i'm taken for granted a lot of the time
-i rarely ever feel pretty
-one of my friends is going through horrible shit at home due to alcohol consumption
-i didn't get to see the dali exhibit because i'm fucking stupid and didn't call or check to see if i needed tickets beforehand.
-i lost my phone
Things are very chaotic among people close to me, and I'm trying to keep a cool head on my shoulders but once I'm alone everything releases and I'm just as crazy as anyone else. I've noticed that I can keep my feelings bottled up to an extent when I'm in front of other people but once I'm alone it's absolute hell to deal with. I do a lot of it to myself. I realize that I need to get out of here to get a little saner, which is what I'll be doing. But I'm so attached that I'm scared of what it'll be like in San Francisco. If I go to San Diego it's 2 hours away, no big. SF is 6 or 7 hours on a good day.
I'm thinking about trying to become vegetarian. For real this time. I just read Skinny Bitch on Thursday and it really made me see things a different way. We'll see how that goes. I had a chicken relapse last night but that's because there wasn't anything else and I wasn't home. I think the first step is giving up red meat, because I think I can do that pretty easily. I'm so accustomed to eating chicken though. It will be really hard.