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Things happen so fast sometimes, you hardly realize they happened at all. BAM, I'm single, BAM, I just took my microbio exam drunk, BAM end of the semester, BAM, fuck, it's christmas? BAM, jesus, do I STILL hate men?
I've decided on using my "boyfriend" christmas money on a new tattoo. I always feel the need to make some dramatic change to myself after a break up. I think it helps me to show myself how much I've grown as a person. And as much of a wuss as I am, modifying my body also shows me how much pain I can take not only emotionally, but physically as well. It shows me how much stronger I've grown as a person.
Also, ink is pretty hot. I mean, I would totally date me with this new tattoo. I'd totally date me anyway, but I'd totally want to date me MORE with a new tattoo.
Also, where has my alcoholism gone? I've been drunk ONCE since I've been single which is extrondinary in comparison to my "every night I'm off work" intoxication.
Why do I feel this "okay" sober? Am I quoting a Pink song? I must be losing it.
I really need to get my christmas shopping done.
I havn't bought a single thing, though I know what I need to buy. I hope I still have enough money afterwards for my tattoo. Hopefully, Jake will give me a good deal.
Why is it so hard to have a male best friend? I couldn't imagine myself with a boyfriend now or anytime soon, though I feel guilty if I even go out on a date. I'm not sure how to handle that. Garrr, where's Dr. Phil when you need him?
I've decided on using my "boyfriend" christmas money on a new tattoo. I always feel the need to make some dramatic change to myself after a break up. I think it helps me to show myself how much I've grown as a person. And as much of a wuss as I am, modifying my body also shows me how much pain I can take not only emotionally, but physically as well. It shows me how much stronger I've grown as a person.
Also, ink is pretty hot. I mean, I would totally date me with this new tattoo. I'd totally date me anyway, but I'd totally want to date me MORE with a new tattoo.
Also, where has my alcoholism gone? I've been drunk ONCE since I've been single which is extrondinary in comparison to my "every night I'm off work" intoxication.
Why do I feel this "okay" sober? Am I quoting a Pink song? I must be losing it.
I really need to get my christmas shopping done.
I havn't bought a single thing, though I know what I need to buy. I hope I still have enough money afterwards for my tattoo. Hopefully, Jake will give me a good deal.
Why is it so hard to have a male best friend? I couldn't imagine myself with a boyfriend now or anytime soon, though I feel guilty if I even go out on a date. I'm not sure how to handle that. Garrr, where's Dr. Phil when you need him?