This is like a letter to Nate
Hey. I have a question...why do you keep flirting with me? I'm not saying I don't like the attention, I'm just saying it's kinda weird because I know you don't really like me in that way. I know this sounds weird but, everytime we talk on the phone I just feel like I want to die. You amaze me so much and I'm just completely love strucken to you. I remember you told me that if Logan never happened, I would have you right now, and I guess you could say that is kinda like rubbing it in my face that I fucked up our relationship (which I did). I miss having everything we had. I actually kinda think it's good that we broke up because I would have never actually known how much I love you. I'm serious. When we were going out I just liked you. I guess it is true...you never knew how much you loved someone until you lose them. I'm sorry for ruining your first relationship with a girl and I wish I could go back and make it all better. I should've given you the girlfriend you truely wanted. I could be her. I know you've got someone way better waiting for you somewhere else. The only way I can ever tell you how I truely feel is on paper. Well. I've been trying to tell you this for a year and a half. I love you.