with a spark, i go up in flames

[dieyoung999]

chills cover my skin; I feel passionately about this

i'm haunted

imquestioningeverything.mylifefeelsfalse.
whereisthemotivationandwhydoifeelsolost.
imonthevergeofgivingupbecausethereisno
useinextendingthelifeofafalsehoodwhenI
feeltheonlyplaceworththestruggletomaintain
purityisinsideofmychest.ivebeenformatted
tofityourTVscreenandthistimeiamabsolutely
sureihavenomoreresolvetofightit.todayIwent
throughpicturesandfoundasenseofperspective.
thereisnomeaningbehindthebadgesIwear.I
knowwhatiwantwithmylifebutiseverything
evolvingwithme?arethepeopleiworkwithat
thesamelevelofcomitment,lust,talent,extr
emity?caninotonlysurvivebutthrive?trying
getsoldafternoimprovementisunderstood.
thingshavegottensloppyandiresentit.things
havegottenpersonalandiresentit.focushas
beenlostandiabsolutelyabhoreit.givemewhat
ineedtowork.tonightthetalkingstopsandIwill
watchtheprogressinsilence.furthermore,
iamutterlymisunderstood.theprominance
inwhichiwriteisonlyforonethingtounderstand
andonlyforonethingtohereindevelope.itssofrustratingthat

i'm going to do what i've always done