smeared mascara has never looked so well

[dietoniteforlov]

usually when i need someone
no one is available.
i think God knew that this moment
i really needed help.
and as i sat here crying, wishing
someone cared..my friend ruben called.

he has the best advice.

i've never wanted someone as bad as i do now..
knowing they dont want me.
it hurts so bad.
i feel like ny heart literally hurts.

sorry, but i refuse to talk to boys anymore.
and i think i am going to delete almost every boy
off myspace that i dont know...

bye.

fuck i just fell outta my chair and i think i twisted my wrist and my shoulder is numb.
so is my head. why do i have such bad luck?