UGH
so basically last summer was a good time. i had fun last summer. and looking back from that summer to this one, and based on my lack of lj entries between that time, i basically summed it all up. i havent done SHIT that was very worthwhile in a year. all my time was spent to that loser who sucked up my self esteem, fed me and made me fat, sucked up my money and time and happiness... fed me lies and rude comments...
and i still sometimes miss him! im a pessimist, but in weird ways, also an optimist. like i look back on shitty times and sometimes only see the good!
welllll. i went to almost better than sex over last weekend (something at the alexandra hotel in downtown la) and it wsnt that great, for 40 fuckin dollars. michelle and i had to go through a lot of shit to get in since we werent going to get into avalon (21 + ).
anyway back to the real deal. between last and this summer, i havent done hardly anything exciting! just bide my time with ralph. everything went to him. and now that i think aboutit, except for a few key moments and in the beginning, it was fucking pointless and ica nt recall anything good coming of it. AT ALL!
and i still sometimes miss him! im a pessimist, but in weird ways, also an optimist. like i look back on shitty times and sometimes only see the good!
welllll. i went to almost better than sex over last weekend (something at the alexandra hotel in downtown la) and it wsnt that great, for 40 fuckin dollars. michelle and i had to go through a lot of shit to get in since we werent going to get into avalon (21 + ).
anyway back to the real deal. between last and this summer, i havent done hardly anything exciting! just bide my time with ralph. everything went to him. and now that i think aboutit, except for a few key moments and in the beginning, it was fucking pointless and ica nt recall anything good coming of it. AT ALL!