Mediation
My stomach is twisting itself in knots. I have a mediation in 4 hours with a family justice counsellor and my ex regarding child support and special expense payments for Zach. Basically, he hasn't paid me anything since September 2009, not a single penny. This step of going to a counsellor is in order to avoid going to court. If we can't "mediate" it out between us then we'll have to put it in the hands of a judge who will decide what arrears he will have to pay, what portion of the expenses, etc. I really want to avoid going to court because then it's completely out of our hands. Whatever the judge decides is what it will be.
On the other hand, I don't want to feel pressured into coming to an agreement that I am less than happy with and signing it and regretting it later.
I used to be stronger inside but I guess the physical effects of the ED are wearing on me too. I used to approach conflict with gusto and confidence, standing up to people and holding fast to my ground and my belief in myself. Now I feel deflated and insignificant overall which of course impairs my ability to stand up for myself.
I just want today to be over :(
On the other hand, I don't want to feel pressured into coming to an agreement that I am less than happy with and signing it and regretting it later.
I used to be stronger inside but I guess the physical effects of the ED are wearing on me too. I used to approach conflict with gusto and confidence, standing up to people and holding fast to my ground and my belief in myself. Now I feel deflated and insignificant overall which of course impairs my ability to stand up for myself.
I just want today to be over :(