i want to live alone in the desert
What has my life been like post-application season, you ask?
1) Joce and I hosted a dinner party. People came and ate and also played games and watched the orange people on Jersey Shore.
2) I went to Big Bear with my family. Being the poser that I am, I bought a snowboard and used it. So much fun! I want to go back. Who wants to come? Let's go. Now. Seriously.
3) I have been playing my Wii and my DS, and also re-reading The Wheel of Time, those nerdy fantasy books I used to read in high school. What prompted me to do that? I don't know, but I want to be finished with the entire series in 3 months or so.
4) I've been drinking. Not like a fish or anything, but enough to have fun and not yak. I believe I may have caused a scene in front of my family at NYE and was forced to spend the night, despite the fact that I sobered up by 4AM. ANYWAY.
5) I have been putting on a show at work. Showing up more often these days. This doesn't necessarily mean I've been working my ass off though. It's more for appearances. Now I just go through the motions of taking care of daily business. But the drive and initiative I used to have as recent as last year is no longer there. I'm here to put in my time and leave on the dot.
6) I have confirmations from all four programs (Yale, Northwestern, UMich, UT-Austin) that they have received all of my application materials.
7) I am making plans to visit Austin in the first week of February, and have two appointments slated with some professors. This is pretty exciting. I really hope I get in here. I've been reading up on the city itself and it sounds really cool. Full of hippies and "freegans," haha! So it's kind of like Berkeley I guess! It's a blue pocket amidst the red sea that is Texas. And plus their football team is not too shabby.
8) I need to figure out a way to return my books to the Berkeley library. I guess I'll just ship it up because I don't know when I'll be going there next. Anyone want to take a road trip?
I've been working on that list of things I wanted to do now that app season is over. Looks like I'm making progress. But I still need to have that gLee marathon, L Word marathon, Filipino movie night, and what else? I'm supposed to go to Weho tomorrow night but not sure if that's going to happen since it's raining so much.
Random:
My place gets a little flooded in the rain.
Mr. Weatherbee seems to have lost a tooth. (or toof, if that's how you want to say it)
I'm worried about that kid. What's gonna happen if I go to school and am way too busy to give him attention? Poor guy. Maybe he needs a baby brother. Great. I'm going to become a cat lady.
I suffer from Impostor Syndrome. I fear that the world will wake up one day and realize that I am a fraud, that I've achieved moderate academic and professional success due to sheer luck. I'm not that intelligent or original and I will end up being the under-achieving over-achiever. Thinking about these things makes me experience a type of mental hyperventilation. I've been neurotically checking for decisions online, almost every day, even though I know decisions don't come out until at least the end of February. Oh. God. *sigh* I really do want to go to sleep and wake up in the middle of March to find at least one acceptance letter. Just one! All I need is one! Please oh please please PLEASE!!!!
I'm going crazy. I need another cigarette. And I need to leave this office. I need a drink! Who drinks this early in the afternoon? I can't. I left my pear vodka at my brother's house.
1) Joce and I hosted a dinner party. People came and ate and also played games and watched the orange people on Jersey Shore.
2) I went to Big Bear with my family. Being the poser that I am, I bought a snowboard and used it. So much fun! I want to go back. Who wants to come? Let's go. Now. Seriously.
3) I have been playing my Wii and my DS, and also re-reading The Wheel of Time, those nerdy fantasy books I used to read in high school. What prompted me to do that? I don't know, but I want to be finished with the entire series in 3 months or so.
4) I've been drinking. Not like a fish or anything, but enough to have fun and not yak. I believe I may have caused a scene in front of my family at NYE and was forced to spend the night, despite the fact that I sobered up by 4AM. ANYWAY.
5) I have been putting on a show at work. Showing up more often these days. This doesn't necessarily mean I've been working my ass off though. It's more for appearances. Now I just go through the motions of taking care of daily business. But the drive and initiative I used to have as recent as last year is no longer there. I'm here to put in my time and leave on the dot.
6) I have confirmations from all four programs (Yale, Northwestern, UMich, UT-Austin) that they have received all of my application materials.
7) I am making plans to visit Austin in the first week of February, and have two appointments slated with some professors. This is pretty exciting. I really hope I get in here. I've been reading up on the city itself and it sounds really cool. Full of hippies and "freegans," haha! So it's kind of like Berkeley I guess! It's a blue pocket amidst the red sea that is Texas. And plus their football team is not too shabby.
8) I need to figure out a way to return my books to the Berkeley library. I guess I'll just ship it up because I don't know when I'll be going there next. Anyone want to take a road trip?
I've been working on that list of things I wanted to do now that app season is over. Looks like I'm making progress. But I still need to have that gLee marathon, L Word marathon, Filipino movie night, and what else? I'm supposed to go to Weho tomorrow night but not sure if that's going to happen since it's raining so much.
Random:
My place gets a little flooded in the rain.
Mr. Weatherbee seems to have lost a tooth. (or toof, if that's how you want to say it)
I'm worried about that kid. What's gonna happen if I go to school and am way too busy to give him attention? Poor guy. Maybe he needs a baby brother. Great. I'm going to become a cat lady.
I suffer from Impostor Syndrome. I fear that the world will wake up one day and realize that I am a fraud, that I've achieved moderate academic and professional success due to sheer luck. I'm not that intelligent or original and I will end up being the under-achieving over-achiever. Thinking about these things makes me experience a type of mental hyperventilation. I've been neurotically checking for decisions online, almost every day, even though I know decisions don't come out until at least the end of February. Oh. God. *sigh* I really do want to go to sleep and wake up in the middle of March to find at least one acceptance letter. Just one! All I need is one! Please oh please please PLEASE!!!!
I'm going crazy. I need another cigarette. And I need to leave this office. I need a drink! Who drinks this early in the afternoon? I can't. I left my pear vodka at my brother's house.