A classic anxiety dream
I work up from a dream (it's 4am).
At 37 weeks i think i know it's classic anxiety over the impending birth.
I was having drinks with my mothers'group when I had a call from an old friend. she was calling on behalf of my math tuition teacher I had when I was 10-16 (Mr tsing). 'Are you going to come back for math tuition?' She asked. Also, she continued, what food did I need to eat during tuition and did I remember how much it cost so I could pay him?
I was flabbergasted. Why did I need math tuition? I tried to explain that I had gestational diabetes and the food wasn't necessary, but the phone connection went dead. So I asked my friend, @superen - 'is math hard?'
Of course it was, she replied, as did my husband, who also appeared. Another friend materialised and they were all doing homework together, their textbooks open. I had no books. I told them 'wow. I have never been to a lecture and never looked at the work. I don't even have a timetable! I thought I was a mom and didn't need to do homework anymore!'
Oh no, my friend replied. We've got math, science, literature, history and music. It's tough work and exams are coming at the end of the year.
I immediately put together a plan to buy textbooks and get started on work. I had no idea that all my friends had been studying and working behind my back! I thought they would have just informed me and I would be dragged along on their sea of conscientiousness. Why did I need qualifications? Wasn't i done? Apparently not. After the birth I have to go back to school and graduate. Apparently, I hadn't even graduated yet.
Life is so hard.
Upon waking I was filled with a huge sense of relief. The education system with all the tests and exams are hugely stressful. Now I just live life and relax (when the kid is asleep and the chores are done). There isn't a pressing need to study or use all bits of my time learning to get ahead. I thought about my time with my math tutor when I was 15. We were sat around his round table, doing math. There were boys and girls. My friend's brother, Leonard was there and he had brought his friend, Engsu. They were from our brother school and were proper cheeky virile
boys. Leonard was notorious for being cute in his day. They stared at me and made jokes. I decided to ignore them and I was caught up in my world of algebra and math. I liked math especially when I had got the knack and Mr tsing explained everything so well to me. I loved going for tuition.
That night, I think i received a phone call from Leonard, asking permission for his friend to call me. I said yes, and after a while and many calls later, I had a first teenage boyfriend. It was crazy. All I wanted to do was math.
At 37 weeks i think i know it's classic anxiety over the impending birth.
I was having drinks with my mothers'group when I had a call from an old friend. she was calling on behalf of my math tuition teacher I had when I was 10-16 (Mr tsing). 'Are you going to come back for math tuition?' She asked. Also, she continued, what food did I need to eat during tuition and did I remember how much it cost so I could pay him?
I was flabbergasted. Why did I need math tuition? I tried to explain that I had gestational diabetes and the food wasn't necessary, but the phone connection went dead. So I asked my friend, @superen - 'is math hard?'
Of course it was, she replied, as did my husband, who also appeared. Another friend materialised and they were all doing homework together, their textbooks open. I had no books. I told them 'wow. I have never been to a lecture and never looked at the work. I don't even have a timetable! I thought I was a mom and didn't need to do homework anymore!'
Oh no, my friend replied. We've got math, science, literature, history and music. It's tough work and exams are coming at the end of the year.
I immediately put together a plan to buy textbooks and get started on work. I had no idea that all my friends had been studying and working behind my back! I thought they would have just informed me and I would be dragged along on their sea of conscientiousness. Why did I need qualifications? Wasn't i done? Apparently not. After the birth I have to go back to school and graduate. Apparently, I hadn't even graduated yet.
Life is so hard.
Upon waking I was filled with a huge sense of relief. The education system with all the tests and exams are hugely stressful. Now I just live life and relax (when the kid is asleep and the chores are done). There isn't a pressing need to study or use all bits of my time learning to get ahead. I thought about my time with my math tutor when I was 15. We were sat around his round table, doing math. There were boys and girls. My friend's brother, Leonard was there and he had brought his friend, Engsu. They were from our brother school and were proper cheeky virile
boys. Leonard was notorious for being cute in his day. They stared at me and made jokes. I decided to ignore them and I was caught up in my world of algebra and math. I liked math especially when I had got the knack and Mr tsing explained everything so well to me. I loved going for tuition.
That night, I think i received a phone call from Leonard, asking permission for his friend to call me. I said yes, and after a while and many calls later, I had a first teenage boyfriend. It was crazy. All I wanted to do was math.