He's the brightest firefly in my jar.
Dear Terry.
I'm glad that you called tonight to let me know that you think I'm a liar. Because that just proves that you don't know me at all. You don't know anything about me, and I guess you never did. I gave you six months of my life and then some. I told you I loved you, that I needed you, that I couldn't see myself without you. And now, all I want to do is wish you away. You don't care about my feelings, you never have. All you want is to make yourself feel better. You love that I'm still hanging onto what we used to have. You love that I'll be there when you break some girls' heart. You know every button to push that will make me upset, and you push them all at once. I can't handle you walking all over me anymore. I can't put up with you dragging me along for the ride. I don't know why I've tried so hard to get something I knew would hurt me in the end. I don't know why I let myself get so upset over you. I'm going to move on. I've started moving on already and I'm very happy. I'm glad you told me you never wanted to talk to me again, you're doing it for all the wrong reasons, but regardless, I'm happy. It's best for us, it's best for me. I can't keep doing this to myself. I can't keep getting upset over something that I never had.
I'm sorry that you have the wrong impression of who I am.
And I'm sorry that you're the only reason it's like that.
Thank you,
Dierdre.
I get home tomorrow. I'm very excited. I can't wait to see Sarah. More importantly, I am so excited to see Derek. He is an amazing boy, and the most normal boy I've met thus far. He has the same sense of humor that I do, and I love spending time with him. He makes me feel all giddy again, like I have a middle school crush. I like it like that. He makes me feel like me, and he understands me.
I sure do love that boy.
Wish me luck on the flight tomorrow.
I'll see you in Milwaukee.
L O V E .
I'm glad that you called tonight to let me know that you think I'm a liar. Because that just proves that you don't know me at all. You don't know anything about me, and I guess you never did. I gave you six months of my life and then some. I told you I loved you, that I needed you, that I couldn't see myself without you. And now, all I want to do is wish you away. You don't care about my feelings, you never have. All you want is to make yourself feel better. You love that I'm still hanging onto what we used to have. You love that I'll be there when you break some girls' heart. You know every button to push that will make me upset, and you push them all at once. I can't handle you walking all over me anymore. I can't put up with you dragging me along for the ride. I don't know why I've tried so hard to get something I knew would hurt me in the end. I don't know why I let myself get so upset over you. I'm going to move on. I've started moving on already and I'm very happy. I'm glad you told me you never wanted to talk to me again, you're doing it for all the wrong reasons, but regardless, I'm happy. It's best for us, it's best for me. I can't keep doing this to myself. I can't keep getting upset over something that I never had.
I'm sorry that you have the wrong impression of who I am.
And I'm sorry that you're the only reason it's like that.
Thank you,
Dierdre.
I get home tomorrow. I'm very excited. I can't wait to see Sarah. More importantly, I am so excited to see Derek. He is an amazing boy, and the most normal boy I've met thus far. He has the same sense of humor that I do, and I love spending time with him. He makes me feel all giddy again, like I have a middle school crush. I like it like that. He makes me feel like me, and he understands me.
I sure do love that boy.
Wish me luck on the flight tomorrow.
I'll see you in Milwaukee.
L O V E .