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im SO FUCKING DONE! I HATE HIM SO MUCH! I HOPE HE GETS CAUGHT UP IN HIMSELF AND HE GOES BACK TO JAIL. THAT BASTARD DESERVES IT. for those of you who dont know what a piece of shit frank is..HERE U GO! as i've said before we havnt hung out much over the past few weeks because i THOUGHT he was working every night. and yanno, i said that was fine by me because i knew he needed to work to make money for his child support, and i knew he didnt want to go back to jail. he still called when he could..and to me i thought it was worth it. the last day we hung out, he borrowed money from me for his car battery...later that week he was leaving to go to TX for AT with his unit for 2 weeks. he called me the wednesday night before and said hell have more time to talk to me while hes down there. so while he was down there he was calling me about every 2 days..i figured he was busy training. he also told me that his mom was picking up his paycheck and that on wed. i could go to her and get my $60 that he owes me. well i called his parents tues, and his dad trash talked both frank and i, and said he has nothing to do with franks money. even after he insulted me multiple times, i still remained respectful...well last thursday i got a call from frank tellin me that hes pissed b/c his mom called and said i tried to get his paycheck from work and now they wont release the check to anyone but him...i flipped out. i heard so much shit about him, and never fell for the hearsay....and the SECOND he heard that i did something ( THAT I NEVER DID ) he believes it...and he kept trying to make me feel guilty about it. cause thats what he does. he always makes himself out to be the victim..hes done it to me before. then he went on to tell me that his dad said i was being a snoody bitch on the phone...i said way to stick up for me, cause he KNOWS i would NEVER talk to his parents like that. i told him he could call anyone and they would tell him i was working every night, that i never went to his work.so he said he believed me, we said goodnight..and that was that........then it all went downhill.......
sunday at 9:00, on my way into work i get a call from my ex b/f whos down in TX with frank, and in the same unit..he casually asks how frank and i are doing, i said ok..a little stressed but ok...and i asked why he was calling me to ask me this at 900 in the morning..and he broke the news to me. frank was being real buddy buddy with some other girl down there...and all of his friends kept telling him its not right, that he had a girl back home. theres a lot of speculation going on that they were messing around after training days. then 6 other guys got on the phone telling me how hes cheating, that hes trash...that he owes people money down there...and that hes been drinking every night...well by that point i was at work....and crying my eyes out, so i told rob to call me later and just keep an eye out. then i called frank (the restuarant wasnt opened yet) and he hung up..so i called back and left a message and told him we gotta talk, and that its fucked up on his part if he doesnt call me back..........so needlesss to say work sucked..i just kept crying..i got home around 4
then tj brought the baby over..so i was sitting with her when i got another phone call...i talked to my ex again, and then this guy bauer got on the phone..and starting telling me more details about how much of an ass hes being, and how he owes people money....and then he says, well im sorry i didnt get to speak to u much at the bar thursday night, but i got pissed at frank cause he owed me money then too...and im like WTF are u talking about? and hes like thursday....the night before we left..at the bar, wasnt that you? and i was like....umm i thought u guys left thursday morning?? and he said nope..friday..that thursday all the guys got together and went out for the night...and frank called up some other girl around 12:30....and they all assumed that girl was me...but bauer got into a fight with frank over his money, and he left him at the bar that night....................i said nope tha definately wasnt me..my first thought was that its victoria..then my ex gets back on the phone and asks if franks been calling me every night since hes been gone, and i said no..only every other night..or every 2 nights, and i told him that i just thought they were busy training...and he said thats not the case at all,...then some more guys got on the phone and they were all telling me that they get done training by 5 or 6..and after that is their free time, and they all go get alcohol and get drunk every night....and frank was there..he almost got into fights with the people he owes money to, and they told me he was all over that girl...and they just kept telling him how fucked up he is. we had a long talk, while i cried my eyes out...and i seriously thought of how screwed up he is. when we got together he had no place to go, no car, no job, no money, no friends, he owed a HUGE amount of debt, and he had no direction.....and he sat in jail for 3 weeks for his child support. now if it wasnt for ME and a good friend of his..his ass would STILL be in jail. and he got a car, a job, made some new friends, starting taking care of his bills....i wen to the end of the world for him to help him clean up his life a little. and he fucked me over so bad.
now im not one to go on hearsay............frankcalled and left me a voicemail sunday night saying he wasnt sure what the hell my message was about, that i needed to call him back...so i did and no answer..but i was still questioning why would 7 guys call me at 900 am (700 in TX) to tell me this....and some of them being guys ive never talked to...and then the bar story just kinda did it in...but then i thought to myself, well maybe he was just hanging out with someone, like i hang out with other guys when hes not available......but theres a difference, he KNEW about my guy friends..he hid this from me, plus he wasnt always the most faithful person to other girls in the past. but still....he kept me believing that he really did love me. maybe he did..maybe he didnt. but now this was nothing but a BIG waste of my time. its so ironic...how the first time i get involved in a serious relationship, and really fall in love with someone for the first time...it turns out to be a sham.
tobys mom called me last week and told me shes been missing money since frank moved in....the boy owes me 200 total...he owes toby 2,500..he owes his sons mom, lawyers, and the college..hes in thousands of dollars of debt..and theres no way hes gonna pay it off...so i HOPE THEY COME AFTER HIS ASS AGAIN, and he winds up in jail.
and yanno, i thanked my ex....i really did.because i told him about me going on active duty, and im GLAD i know all this now...before i left. cause then i would have had to sit there and question wheather or not he was keeping his life on track. but to hell with him..let him derail. i dont GIVE A FUCK.
and i just got a call from noelle...dan young works at lonestar, and he told her that frank was NOT working as much as he said he was...and that hes been seeing a bunch of other girls over the past few months.......i called his ass and left him one last voicemail and told him how fucked up he is, like i wasnt gonna find out, i have an ex in the same unit, and a friend who worked with him....i said i was done that were over and for him say goodbye to his phone...then i hung up.
he was under my phone plan.....i just called nextel to shut off his phone, which is gonna cost me 200...my mom said she would pay it...and im never gonna see my other 200....this boy just cost me $400. mother fucker...
i do feel kinda relieved. i spent a LOT of time crying over this...but now im in the anger stage..i gave up a lot for him. this is my first true heartbreak. i just never saw any of this coming....i thought we were so perfect for eachother..he always told me how much he loved me, and how im the one he wanted to be with forever..........and i thought it was different with him. ive heard it before....but i FELT it when i was with him....i felt so much for him...i gave up how i was with guys..before i never got attached, and i was always the one turning them down, and i would date around...because i figured i was young....then frank told me how he felt..and now i feel like shit about it..because here i thought i had this wonderful guy, who was just attracting bad luck.....and i always told the people that talked shit about him, that i wouldnt judge him from his past...that i would only hold him accountable from the time we were together, and forward..only then would i make judgements...and this is my judgement.....Frank R. Langwig V is pure trash.