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So I'm generally not one to sherk from a challange but I finally met something I could not do. I have a phobia of flying and I thought the job I was working on would provide money and a way to confront that fear. I am ashamed to say though that the fear was greater then I am. It is a horrible feeling having to give up something like that, but I couldn't stand waking up in the middle of the night covered in sweat wanting to puke over it. No job is worth that I'm afraid. So I'm left once again unemployed but with prospects, my old job is thinking of taking me back and the job I was offered before I left will probably take me. If worse comes to worse I can always explore areas down south as well.

I hate this feeling though, I thought things were working out, alas change always seems to happen for me