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Dear Jacob,
Today was HUUUUUGE! 24 phone calls. 1 hour of bike riding in transit (well, that's average for a school day) Nothing like the pressure of a concert to remind you that you CAN do things besides, well, nothing.
But also, concerts have a way of getting you down nowadays. The last few have THemselves been incentives to compose and prepare, and it's still preferable to you to have things complete beFORe you plan a concert. At least, you are told the majority of people do it this way.
And falling again into the pattern of being jusssst a litttlle toooo lateee on things - post-procrastinatory productivity kicking in ONly when timely completion is now made imPOSsible - it just makes you wonder what it'll be like at I-Park, with a whole month of freedom to compose - will a whole month be spent composing? Will you find new ways to procrastinate?
Bad job with publicity. Late getting posters up, facebook event said "Will it suck? I'm honestly not sure yet..." --What is that? Nobody needs to read that self-doubting garbage! This concert's gonna kick ass!
But really, this whole process has been one of healthily peeling back numerous layers of delusion. How much time is required for things like rehearsals and seducing performers and tracking down kazoos and pie tins? To what degree to people actually believe you when you throw out a half-baked idea? When the language seems so certain but the people seem so uncertain two weeks later when you're like "remember that thing i told you about? well now let's do it" - Sincerity Inflation!
Today was HUUUUUGE! 24 phone calls. 1 hour of bike riding in transit (well, that's average for a school day) Nothing like the pressure of a concert to remind you that you CAN do things besides, well, nothing.
But also, concerts have a way of getting you down nowadays. The last few have THemselves been incentives to compose and prepare, and it's still preferable to you to have things complete beFORe you plan a concert. At least, you are told the majority of people do it this way.
And falling again into the pattern of being jusssst a litttlle toooo lateee on things - post-procrastinatory productivity kicking in ONly when timely completion is now made imPOSsible - it just makes you wonder what it'll be like at I-Park, with a whole month of freedom to compose - will a whole month be spent composing? Will you find new ways to procrastinate?
Bad job with publicity. Late getting posters up, facebook event said "Will it suck? I'm honestly not sure yet..." --What is that? Nobody needs to read that self-doubting garbage! This concert's gonna kick ass!
But really, this whole process has been one of healthily peeling back numerous layers of delusion. How much time is required for things like rehearsals and seducing performers and tracking down kazoos and pie tins? To what degree to people actually believe you when you throw out a half-baked idea? When the language seems so certain but the people seem so uncertain two weeks later when you're like "remember that thing i told you about? well now let's do it" - Sincerity Inflation!