some self-noticing
two days ago the desktop went from 62 items to 6 items. Antidesktop got an even thorougher cleanup - from 300-something to zero. Who needs an antidesktop!
i confess i'm borderline stuck. which is why 17tPP isn't preparing as swimmingly as it could be. here! an escape! a midnight barefooted staggering walk around the block!
i know! i'll check the same webpages 30 times a day!
i know! i'll remove my chair so that i can't check the same webpages 30 times a day!
i know! i'll make a list of everything to do for the next...forever. that way i'll...? know what to do all the time? because.. that's... why i'm stuck?
Hrm.
i'm just full of the same problems that have plagued reality from day one. i'm just full of reality and smallness and farts. i'm just full of sentences i haven't read before...until i read them and ruin the whole thing blahhhh. i'm too obsessed with the idea of being obsessed to be obsessed with anything...useful.
i'm just so convinceable. (occasionally useful.) it's not quite like being spineless. (oh, i've got a spine, all right! and it's a sharp spine, it is.) i think i make an ethic out of what-happens. something is Right because it Happens. if you want to make something Right you make it Happen. it's some sorta pragmatism. i don't think it will work. well, my version is, a whole lot of things could happen; we could be talking and thinking about a huge number of things. the ones that i choose to limit myself to thinking about are the ones that follow what Happens. there's always this creeping notion of, maybe i don't want This to Happen right Now but i can't think of any alternatives because i'm so caught up in the following! I'll always let you change the subject. Here, let's talk about Anything! Go!
No, that's irresponsible. <- I just re-found the meaning of responsible - required to respond - so irresponsible = ¿ impossible to respond to ? amazing
Heinz von Foerster: If we desire to SEE, we must learn how to ACT! (It's a start, anyway.)
...free text NOW from the tyranny of left-to-right, top-to-bottom, word-processor paradigms! do i have to write the software myself? has it already been written and i don't know about it? either way, no fair!
i'm jealous of architecture because it makes itself useful. and i'm jealous of poetry because it seems to think better than i.
i confess i'm borderline stuck. which is why 17tPP isn't preparing as swimmingly as it could be. here! an escape! a midnight barefooted staggering walk around the block!
i know! i'll check the same webpages 30 times a day!
i know! i'll remove my chair so that i can't check the same webpages 30 times a day!
i know! i'll make a list of everything to do for the next...forever. that way i'll...? know what to do all the time? because.. that's... why i'm stuck?
Hrm.
i'm just full of the same problems that have plagued reality from day one. i'm just full of reality and smallness and farts. i'm just full of sentences i haven't read before...until i read them and ruin the whole thing blahhhh. i'm too obsessed with the idea of being obsessed to be obsessed with anything...useful.
i'm just so convinceable. (occasionally useful.) it's not quite like being spineless. (oh, i've got a spine, all right! and it's a sharp spine, it is.) i think i make an ethic out of what-happens. something is Right because it Happens. if you want to make something Right you make it Happen. it's some sorta pragmatism. i don't think it will work. well, my version is, a whole lot of things could happen; we could be talking and thinking about a huge number of things. the ones that i choose to limit myself to thinking about are the ones that follow what Happens. there's always this creeping notion of, maybe i don't want This to Happen right Now but i can't think of any alternatives because i'm so caught up in the following! I'll always let you change the subject. Here, let's talk about Anything! Go!
No, that's irresponsible. <- I just re-found the meaning of responsible - required to respond - so irresponsible = ¿ impossible to respond to ? amazing
Heinz von Foerster: If we desire to SEE, we must learn how to ACT! (It's a start, anyway.)
...free text NOW from the tyranny of left-to-right, top-to-bottom, word-processor paradigms! do i have to write the software myself? has it already been written and i don't know about it? either way, no fair!
i'm jealous of architecture because it makes itself useful. and i'm jealous of poetry because it seems to think better than i.