worse than stuck is defunded and defunned
Uhh I just ran out of optimism. Everything looks bleak. I look foolish. I'm doing everything the hard way, and it isn't (yet) worth it.
(As if things could help things) Do you have any good sources of optimism that haven't run dry for you yet? I'm sick of all the websites I have a habit of checking.
17-tone piano project May 7th: difficult music with maybe some payoffs. Stearns came in omygosh 39 pages of collage insanity...
31-tone singin' camp May 8th-18th: do I have the guts and verve to make this happen?
I think the last of the chances for Rice to give me money to travel to places just slipped through my fingers. I wish I didn't know or care, but dangit. and also dangit to $30 library fees and $44 bank fees for trying to get a birthday present paid for by my parents.
On the plus side, all we have is the fact that people other than me are adding the xenharmonic wiki now, sometimes. This is an incentive to me, which becomes an incentive to them, and so on. Escalation by feedback and feedforth. That's why these things called relationships tend to be fun, I hear. But that's one of those things which does not permit itself to be its own reason...can't just ask for one and get it! Reason-needing is weird. I like to think that in my conceptual wanderings I'm on a path to finding things out that haven't been found out before. what would it take?
(As if things could help things) Do you have any good sources of optimism that haven't run dry for you yet? I'm sick of all the websites I have a habit of checking.
17-tone piano project May 7th: difficult music with maybe some payoffs. Stearns came in omygosh 39 pages of collage insanity...
31-tone singin' camp May 8th-18th: do I have the guts and verve to make this happen?
I think the last of the chances for Rice to give me money to travel to places just slipped through my fingers. I wish I didn't know or care, but dangit. and also dangit to $30 library fees and $44 bank fees for trying to get a birthday present paid for by my parents.
On the plus side, all we have is the fact that people other than me are adding the xenharmonic wiki now, sometimes. This is an incentive to me, which becomes an incentive to them, and so on. Escalation by feedback and feedforth. That's why these things called relationships tend to be fun, I hear. But that's one of those things which does not permit itself to be its own reason...can't just ask for one and get it! Reason-needing is weird. I like to think that in my conceptual wanderings I'm on a path to finding things out that haven't been found out before. what would it take?