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So, Ace had a series of Siezures on Tuesday night. 3 grand mal siezures in like a 2 hour span. Its some crazy shit to have to see the person you love so helpless. He gets really confused and violent after his seizures and had to be heavily sedated by the paramedics and he was screaming and crying and saying "why are you doing this to me?". We were at the hospital for SO long. When they finally told me he was getting discharged they decided to keep him for more tests. Ive just lost it. Ive been an emotional wreck and I think the only thing that saved me was my roommate giving me a Xannex last night. I have just been going into bouts of hysterics and I think its related to some sort of post traumatic stess. Seeing and trying to supress his seizures is hard work. Hes so big and strong. Everything just starts to happen so fast. Ace recieved a spinal tap so hes been getting migranes and back spasms which are common after having one. Its just so hard for me to see him in pain. The look in his eyes is different. My mom is going to come today because ive just been a mess and shes coming for me. Ace's dad came yesterday so I could go to work and not have to worry about him. Ive had a good support system between our parents and our roommates. Im going to see a counselor at school on monday, which ive never done. I think it would good to have someone who could give me some coping skills or some sort of comfort. I don't know.