IS* beautiful and nothing hurts.
I should just have a tag for these 'come back' posts after long absences.
- Community college going good, still not sure where to head from there.
- Officially employed as of today. I reeeeaally didn't want to ever work at a fast food place, and just going through the kitchen (Jack in the Box) to get to the office in the back kinda bothered me. It's just loud and fast paced, obviously, and not really my cup of tea. BUT I can have hours around school and at least I'll be able to say I'm "experienced" in future interviews.
- My room has been repainted! Finally. I mentioned how just walking in to all that lime-green annoyed me, now it's coral, mocha and sky colored. Won't post pictures of it yet 'till I get a desk and I'm planning on buying it myself. Bedroom/craft-room, let's see how you pan out.
- Which takes me to what I'll be buying right away: I will take my pets to the vet for a check up, Namine and Francisco have never been and Bonbon, the old "vieja" that she is, hasn't gone in 4 years.
- I've been cleaning and de-cluttering my room all around-- I NEVER threw any binders out since elementary school! All worksheets and papers were stored away. It was the sweetest trip down memory lane (yes, even going through tons of math classwork brought memories). And gosh, I swear, I am such a hoarder. Not like the ones you see on TV (which, by the way, that's enough America), I don't keep garbage around, but knick-knacs and stuff with sentimental value. Although, some are just too silly. I read Lars Eighner's essay "Dumpster Diving" (recommend! Quite a funny read) and in the end he mentions something about being careful not to become a scavenger who collects every piece of junk he finds in the dumpsters, for whatever reason, because that's how you become one of those [homeless people] with carts full of crap. He said that he keeps the memories of things with him and not with things because, even if it's hard to let go of them, they're just materials; you hold those memories, not them. So, that helped let go of the clutter a bit (but not all!). :)
I find way more crafty and sewing and inspirational-type blogs on blogger, yet I have an LJ. :/ And truth be told, the ads are fucking insufferable. I doubt I'll move, cause I like the privacy of LJ and the fact that it feel more diary-like to me. If I started using blogger it would be for projects and photo dumps.
I saw this, a little baby onesie while thrifting and it was just too cute to not grab. Then I remembered I don't have any babies... but I do have cat. Hmm.
I'm always blaming my mood swings, or rather, "mode" swings 'cause they're that crazy and different, on PMSing and whatnot. Today, I realized I'm just going to stop doing that. It sounds so ridiculous. They're me, they're my feelings and I'm "blaming" them on something. Silly. I only realized that because I was in a given-up mood for the last few months and kind of just... touching the water with my toes, after a huge emotional fall out that I had. And now, really all of the sudden, I jumped in. There was no joy in living with just my toes in like that. I won't go into a huge "it's the good memories that you want to look back to, not the bad ones" and "nobody's perfect", but that's pretty much what it is. I can only control my choices and the rest I can just deal with.
2010 was beautiful but deadly. I have such a bittersweet feeling with it and yet I hated that it was ending. I've always found the quote "Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt." so corny and annoying; then it applied to me. So now I see a lot more meaning in it because I'm making a present tense instead of past.
*This song is so one that I will dance to at my wedding, maybe even the first! Ahhh...