(fic!!) Beneath Silence and Laughter
Title: Beneath Silence and Laughter
Length: one-shot
Author: reguretto
Genre: inner musing
Ratings: G
Pairings/Characters: actually none, but if you want you can always imply Die and Shinya
Synopsis: Everybody unfold themselves to Die. Everybody, except this Shinya-person.
Comments: I kinda like this one ^^. Many thanks to ceirosken for proof-reading! Comments/critics=love. Enjoy!
(23 Mei 2006 - I was on fire those two days)
His open nature has drawn people to him. They came to him and they opened up to him. It has always been that way. In his family, at school, at work. From small talks about preferences, to deep heart-to-heart conversations about one 'what!' which led to a thousand 'why?'s. And he welcomed them all with a sort of warmth. To them, he was not judging and he was sympathetic. And it brought comfort.
So when Die met Shinya, in him, not only did the redhead find an amazing musician, he also found the first person whose emotions were so contained, he couldn't seem to get past the fence as easily as it usually was. It might have come as a slap, but Die knew better than to force his way in.
Die went on with his bright smile. Taking the part of the goof, while hiding his perceptive self inside.
Little by little, he learned about Kyo and Kaoru. Delighted when they started to let him into their fears and glees. Shinya remains a mystery. Came along Toshiya. A persona who at first appeared to be transparent, but rarely talk about self-experiences. But soon, he too started to talk to Die about his insecurities. His worry about people's notion. His wish to make others happy even though it might cause him to lose their respect. And Shinya stays a mystery.
Maybe it would have been enough for Die to just stay where he was. This one time, though, he is tickled. He had felt a pang of jealousy when he had seen Shinya and Kyo sitting in a corner having an inaudible chat. Die could have just walked there and joined them, but it had felt wrong to do so.
It was easier to believe that Shinya thought of him only as a joker who teased a lot, and not as a person who he could depend on.
Then one day, Shinya approached Die with a question.
"Do you hate me?"
And how can Die answer such a question? Does he hate Shinya? Yes, he does, because Shinya gives him a taste of alien feelings, and he is afraid of things he can't understand. Shinya is the only person in his inner circle of friends who he can't figure out.
Shinya. Shinya is his complete opposite.
Shinya scares him. The silent Shinya. Who covers his face in bangs. Who hides behind his silence. The silent observer.
Shinya. Shinya is his kind.
"Die?"
"No. No, I don't hate you."
"Thank you."
Shinya walks away from him. In his usual sloppy steps, Die has come to notice.
"Shinya. Shinya! Wait."
Die said, stopping Shinya in his track.
"Yes?"
"Do you want to have dinner with me, tonight? We can talk."
A smile blooms on Shinya's face.
"Sure."
Maybe it is time for both of them to come out from their hidings. And maybe he has finally received the chance to understand this Shinya person.
Length: one-shot
Author: reguretto
Genre: inner musing
Ratings: G
Pairings/Characters: actually none, but if you want you can always imply Die and Shinya
Synopsis: Everybody unfold themselves to Die. Everybody, except this Shinya-person.
Comments: I kinda like this one ^^. Many thanks to ceirosken for proof-reading! Comments/critics=love. Enjoy!
(23 Mei 2006 - I was on fire those two days)
His open nature has drawn people to him. They came to him and they opened up to him. It has always been that way. In his family, at school, at work. From small talks about preferences, to deep heart-to-heart conversations about one 'what!' which led to a thousand 'why?'s. And he welcomed them all with a sort of warmth. To them, he was not judging and he was sympathetic. And it brought comfort.
So when Die met Shinya, in him, not only did the redhead find an amazing musician, he also found the first person whose emotions were so contained, he couldn't seem to get past the fence as easily as it usually was. It might have come as a slap, but Die knew better than to force his way in.
Die went on with his bright smile. Taking the part of the goof, while hiding his perceptive self inside.
Little by little, he learned about Kyo and Kaoru. Delighted when they started to let him into their fears and glees. Shinya remains a mystery. Came along Toshiya. A persona who at first appeared to be transparent, but rarely talk about self-experiences. But soon, he too started to talk to Die about his insecurities. His worry about people's notion. His wish to make others happy even though it might cause him to lose their respect. And Shinya stays a mystery.
Maybe it would have been enough for Die to just stay where he was. This one time, though, he is tickled. He had felt a pang of jealousy when he had seen Shinya and Kyo sitting in a corner having an inaudible chat. Die could have just walked there and joined them, but it had felt wrong to do so.
It was easier to believe that Shinya thought of him only as a joker who teased a lot, and not as a person who he could depend on.
Then one day, Shinya approached Die with a question.
"Do you hate me?"
And how can Die answer such a question? Does he hate Shinya? Yes, he does, because Shinya gives him a taste of alien feelings, and he is afraid of things he can't understand. Shinya is the only person in his inner circle of friends who he can't figure out.
Shinya. Shinya is his complete opposite.
Shinya scares him. The silent Shinya. Who covers his face in bangs. Who hides behind his silence. The silent observer.
Shinya. Shinya is his kind.
"Die?"
"No. No, I don't hate you."
"Thank you."
Shinya walks away from him. In his usual sloppy steps, Die has come to notice.
"Shinya. Shinya! Wait."
Die said, stopping Shinya in his track.
"Yes?"
"Do you want to have dinner with me, tonight? We can talk."
A smile blooms on Shinya's face.
"Sure."
Maybe it is time for both of them to come out from their hidings. And maybe he has finally received the chance to understand this Shinya person.