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i dont kno why im updating this. no ones going to see it. but really i dont want anyone to see it. im just using it as a journal. that happens to be on the internet. anyone could see it at any time. but they wont. so i'll vent.
so kori's with guz which is awsome. two of my closest friends together. but it sucks right now. its the beginning of the relationship so they are ridiculously on each others tips and i know thats just how it is at the beginning but it just sucks for me because i basically temporarily dont have a best friend. i mean shes still my best friend. but shes physically not really there for me. but i dont blame her. i understand.
haha i dont kno why im crying right now. i feel sad inside. this songs not helping matters either.... i love it..but it can make me cry so bad.
i have no one to go to the movies with tonight.
and its not that alone that upsets me. sometimes everyones just busy. but i feel like this is an sneek peek at what my senior year is going to be like. i have spent a lot of the last two years with my boyfriend. its been amazing. but hes leaving me in september, and now that kori has brian, christie has greg, amanda has nick, and ashley has chris, it seems as though the next year is going to consist a lot of these times where i have no one to hang out with.
sometimes i wonder what hurts more, having lots of friends and then not having anyone to hang out with, or never having anyone ever. if you never have anyone, i suppose you'd be used to it, and you wouldnt know the joy of being with others, so not having anyone wouldn't feel so much like pain. however they always say "its better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all"
i don't think i agree with that quote. well...i dont kno.
i question it from time to time.
im just gonna go take off my make up, wash my face, climb into bed, and hopefully fall asleep for a long time.
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so kori's with guz which is awsome. two of my closest friends together. but it sucks right now. its the beginning of the relationship so they are ridiculously on each others tips and i know thats just how it is at the beginning but it just sucks for me because i basically temporarily dont have a best friend. i mean shes still my best friend. but shes physically not really there for me. but i dont blame her. i understand.
haha i dont kno why im crying right now. i feel sad inside. this songs not helping matters either.... i love it..but it can make me cry so bad.
i have no one to go to the movies with tonight.
and its not that alone that upsets me. sometimes everyones just busy. but i feel like this is an sneek peek at what my senior year is going to be like. i have spent a lot of the last two years with my boyfriend. its been amazing. but hes leaving me in september, and now that kori has brian, christie has greg, amanda has nick, and ashley has chris, it seems as though the next year is going to consist a lot of these times where i have no one to hang out with.
sometimes i wonder what hurts more, having lots of friends and then not having anyone to hang out with, or never having anyone ever. if you never have anyone, i suppose you'd be used to it, and you wouldnt know the joy of being with others, so not having anyone wouldn't feel so much like pain. however they always say "its better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all"
i don't think i agree with that quote. well...i dont kno.
i question it from time to time.
im just gonna go take off my make up, wash my face, climb into bed, and hopefully fall asleep for a long time.
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