Jun 11, 2009 08:34
My mother and my best friend are throwing me a bridal shower/party extravaganza this Saturday. It appears as if they have gone out of their way to organize this and I am very grateful. It's really foreign to me because I haven't even had a birthday party for myself other than the typical 'hey it's my birthday, lets go drink at the club'. I'm used to organizing parties for my friends or lovers, just never myself. I've never had a party organized so nicely just for me. *kicks dirt* It's slightly overwhelming honestly, and my girlfriends are acting all a buzz. What the hell..♥ u ladies
I have to admit weddings are very stressful to plan and you go through another rough patch of figuring out who your real friends are (or at least the ones who could use a little sensitivity training). It's as if every person who ever wanted a chance to take a jab at you when you were down does, and every person who has ever hated weddings, had a bad marriage, or has a problem with your marriage... will make sure you are painfully aware of their issues. They even go as far as trying to make them your own (yay). Seriously cluing myself in on why women turn into bridezillas now. *lol*
For example if you receive and invitation and are unable to attend, please check the little box marked regretfully unable to attend, or write NOT coming on the card - and mail it back. Please do NOT send me dozens of text messages, msn messages, or hurtful emails explaining how important it is that you do something else, or throw a fit and explain that you will not come because 'Jane Doe, Billy Bob' will or will not be attending. This is incredibly juvenile and just adds unnecessary stress. I am already planning a large party for 200 people, this is a sufficient amount of stress thank you.
Something positive: Weddings are amazing in the sense that you really get a chance to pull as many strange people together from all areas in your life (i.e. work, clubs, family, people who made you smile on the crosswalk @ 4th and Union 4 years ago). It's completely randomized and this is something I am a big fan of. I'm both excited and horrified at the same time. Please bare with me while I get it together.
Okay I think that I got a few things off of my chest that have been stressing me out. I'm on an endless mission to surround myself with creative, open minded people who are loving and treat each other with kindness. Sounds gay, but it's true. If I have removed anybody from blogs or stopped communicating with you. It's simply because you have not shown me the same respect, not out of hate or anger. I just want to be left alone by those who seem to have projected negativity or haste towards me in any way. I think that's a fair way to protect myself while experiencing the stress of my wedding and my brother's illness.
Namaste
life,
wedding