2 PILLS JUST WERENT ENOUGH. THE ALARM CLOCKS GONE OFF BUT YOURE NOT WAKING UP! THIS ISNT HAPPENING!
These past 4 days have been the longest, most miserable days of my life lol. But I'm going to the doctors tomorrow...I don't seem to be getting any better. I JUST WANT TO GET BETTER! IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR?! JESUS!! Yeah...I miss Jullian:( I'm going to go insane if I don't talk to him soon...I was asleep last night when he called though...which was stupid beacuse I didn't get ANY sleep last night...so I don't see how I fall asleep early then wind up tossing and turning hour after hour the rest of the night. I can't seem to be able to chew anything either...I tried to eat a sandwich and almost wound up crying beacuse of it lol. It was pathetic. But the good thing is that I finally caught up on SOME sleep earlier...like 2 and a half hours...it still wasn't enough...but whatever.
I haven't seen Jullian since Wensday:( And I don't know if I'll be going to school Tuesday or not. This is driving me INSANE!!!!!!!!!I miss him so much:'(
My aunt was sent to the hospital 2 days ago beacuse she couldn't breath..turns out she has Emphazema(?) and no one ever knew. She's like 50, has smoked most of her life (the doctor said she has the lungs of a 80 year old smoker) and has REALLY bad ashma(?). So we went to the ER like half on hour after Michael called (my dad had to go and get my grandma)...so we got there and went to the back and I looked in the room and she was laying there...all these tubes and wires connected to her, an oxygen mask over her mouth...sweat all over her...she looked like she was in so much pain...I just couldn't take it...that was the only time that I was able to look in the room at all. I was standing there next to my mom and Kayleigh just thinking and started to cry...so my mom took me to the waiting room where I just let loose. I was crying practically the entire time we were there. So finally, Michael took me, Kayleigh, and Tina back to his house so he could put Kayleigh to sleep and Tina and I thought it best that we stay there...so we sat there till about midnight watching "The Notebook" which wasn't good to watch in this situation heh. Every part of it reminded me of Dickie and Rita.
If you haven't seen The Notebook...it's about this guy (Noah) and chick (Ally) who fall in love when they are like 17. They're inseperable(?) for the entire summer. But they come from 2 totaly diffrent backgrounds. He's a poor lumber yard worker, and she's the daughter of a rich plantation owner. So once the summer is over, she has to go to New York for schooling, and he's gotta stay there and work. He writes her a letter every single day for one year, but finally gives up and enrolls in the army when she never replies. So she's like completely heart broken and thinks that he never wants to speak to her again beacuse of a fight that they got into the night before she left for New York...but her mother had made sure she kept every letter he had sent her so she couldn't get them and go to him beacuse they didn't approve of him. Oh, the night of the big fight they had gone to an condemed plantation house, and he went on about how when he gets older, he's going to buy it and completely redue it. She says that she wants to have a say in it and that she wants it white with blue shutters, a porch that goes all the way around the house, and a room over looking the lake so she can paint. So then 7 years later after not speaking to her, he sees her and finds out that she's involved. She sees his picture in the paper in front of the house and goes to see him, and this and that happen and they wind up sleeping together. They spend the next day or so together and completely in love again when her mother comes and takes her for a ride to the lumber yard to see the man that she herself, let get away. They had been in the same situation, but couldn't be together. So when they get back to the house, her mother gives her all the letters Noah had written her. Turns out, Ally's fionce(?) was in town to see her, finds out that she had slept with Noah, Noah and Ally get into a fight, but in the end she went back to Noah and they spent the rest of their lives together. But the thing is, that Ally and Noah are now elderly and Ally has oldtimers(?) and so everyday, Noah reads their story to her with hopes that she'll remember. And everyonce in a while she does...but only for a couple mintues. And in the end, Noah has another heart attack, and later that night he sneeks to Allys room and she has her memory back. They both die in their sleep holding each others hand.
Yeah...I'll admit...I cried at the end lol. There aren't many movies I cry at...but yeah (I am Sam being one that I bawled my eyes out the entire movie lol) but the thing that got me...was that even after so long...he loved her so much that he was willing to read this to her EVERYDAY to try and get her to remember just for those few simple minutes that he can hold the Ally that he fell in love with. It reminded me so much of my aunt and uncle. My uncle worships the ground that Rita walks on. He quit drinking, drugs, everything, just so he could be with her. If you were to just see the look in his eyes when he looks at her...it's amazing...I don't know what he'd do without her...they are so lost without each other...I kinda started to cry earlier when I was thinking about it but stopped beacuse I didn't want my mom to see lol. But it's just...wow...They have spent the last 20 - 30 years with each other...and they love each other more than they did when they married. It's amazing...I can't begin to think what my uncle is going through...I hope she's going to be ok...the doctor told her that if she had waited any longer to get help..she wouldn't be here. She doesn't seem to think she'll make it out. She keeps telling everyone to please watch over Dickie if anything happens to her. This is just...wow....
I haven't seen Jullian since Wensday:( And I don't know if I'll be going to school Tuesday or not. This is driving me INSANE!!!!!!!!!I miss him so much:'(
My aunt was sent to the hospital 2 days ago beacuse she couldn't breath..turns out she has Emphazema(?) and no one ever knew. She's like 50, has smoked most of her life (the doctor said she has the lungs of a 80 year old smoker) and has REALLY bad ashma(?). So we went to the ER like half on hour after Michael called (my dad had to go and get my grandma)...so we got there and went to the back and I looked in the room and she was laying there...all these tubes and wires connected to her, an oxygen mask over her mouth...sweat all over her...she looked like she was in so much pain...I just couldn't take it...that was the only time that I was able to look in the room at all. I was standing there next to my mom and Kayleigh just thinking and started to cry...so my mom took me to the waiting room where I just let loose. I was crying practically the entire time we were there. So finally, Michael took me, Kayleigh, and Tina back to his house so he could put Kayleigh to sleep and Tina and I thought it best that we stay there...so we sat there till about midnight watching "The Notebook" which wasn't good to watch in this situation heh. Every part of it reminded me of Dickie and Rita.
If you haven't seen The Notebook...it's about this guy (Noah) and chick (Ally) who fall in love when they are like 17. They're inseperable(?) for the entire summer. But they come from 2 totaly diffrent backgrounds. He's a poor lumber yard worker, and she's the daughter of a rich plantation owner. So once the summer is over, she has to go to New York for schooling, and he's gotta stay there and work. He writes her a letter every single day for one year, but finally gives up and enrolls in the army when she never replies. So she's like completely heart broken and thinks that he never wants to speak to her again beacuse of a fight that they got into the night before she left for New York...but her mother had made sure she kept every letter he had sent her so she couldn't get them and go to him beacuse they didn't approve of him. Oh, the night of the big fight they had gone to an condemed plantation house, and he went on about how when he gets older, he's going to buy it and completely redue it. She says that she wants to have a say in it and that she wants it white with blue shutters, a porch that goes all the way around the house, and a room over looking the lake so she can paint. So then 7 years later after not speaking to her, he sees her and finds out that she's involved. She sees his picture in the paper in front of the house and goes to see him, and this and that happen and they wind up sleeping together. They spend the next day or so together and completely in love again when her mother comes and takes her for a ride to the lumber yard to see the man that she herself, let get away. They had been in the same situation, but couldn't be together. So when they get back to the house, her mother gives her all the letters Noah had written her. Turns out, Ally's fionce(?) was in town to see her, finds out that she had slept with Noah, Noah and Ally get into a fight, but in the end she went back to Noah and they spent the rest of their lives together. But the thing is, that Ally and Noah are now elderly and Ally has oldtimers(?) and so everyday, Noah reads their story to her with hopes that she'll remember. And everyonce in a while she does...but only for a couple mintues. And in the end, Noah has another heart attack, and later that night he sneeks to Allys room and she has her memory back. They both die in their sleep holding each others hand.
Yeah...I'll admit...I cried at the end lol. There aren't many movies I cry at...but yeah (I am Sam being one that I bawled my eyes out the entire movie lol) but the thing that got me...was that even after so long...he loved her so much that he was willing to read this to her EVERYDAY to try and get her to remember just for those few simple minutes that he can hold the Ally that he fell in love with. It reminded me so much of my aunt and uncle. My uncle worships the ground that Rita walks on. He quit drinking, drugs, everything, just so he could be with her. If you were to just see the look in his eyes when he looks at her...it's amazing...I don't know what he'd do without her...they are so lost without each other...I kinda started to cry earlier when I was thinking about it but stopped beacuse I didn't want my mom to see lol. But it's just...wow...They have spent the last 20 - 30 years with each other...and they love each other more than they did when they married. It's amazing...I can't begin to think what my uncle is going through...I hope she's going to be ok...the doctor told her that if she had waited any longer to get help..she wouldn't be here. She doesn't seem to think she'll make it out. She keeps telling everyone to please watch over Dickie if anything happens to her. This is just...wow....