can't sleep. need things to occupy my time.
"you leave and i'm always left defeated
you leave me on my knees
you leave and i'm left without a language
or at least adequate words to speak
you bring me pain and peace all wrapped up in the same
small gift you bear everytime you use my full real name
and everytime i want you i'm so sorry to be me
and everytime i hear you play i forget to breathe
where are you now?
where are you now?
where are you now?
where are you now?
and i wish i could absorb your pain
or feel it for you just the same
cause i think sometimes it stands in your way.
and sadness falls thickly upon me when the night is over
cause i wish we could be closer
and i'm crazy for even hoping you could ever want
to see me in that sort of way where fireworks take form
and everytime i want you i'm so sorry to be me
and everytime i hear you sing i forget to breathe
where are you now?"
sitting around lex's apartment being her back up vocals drawing pan's labyrinth eyes on my sweaty palms right across from jordan and right next to bud high as a kite wishing every night could be so fulfilling.
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in other news, i am returning to school to complete my fine arts degree. i am traveling the world with no money. i am moving. although i will not talk about it for fear of jinxing it. (the last two have turned out sour.) i am looking forward to special visits from my princess mama's and a couple boys who sit. and make funny quotes that i write down for everyone to enjoy. even though you should really just hang around in person. it's so much more entertaining. i cannot sleep. my body will not let me. i want my hair to grow grow grow. i have another color class at 10 tomorrow morning. but i refuse to let myself be a pessimist.