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there's a lot of hype about doing God's will. there's been a lot of doubt and confusion in my own heart and much stress caused over this. what is God's will?
it's something yes that we should hope for and pray that we are doing. but we never get a black and white letter from God even if we pray night and day. He doesn't work that way.
It's His will for us to love Him and entrust our hearts to Him. that much I know. as long as we're doing that, I just don't think that He's going to lead us astray.
I'm sick of people judging and hurting. I know people just care about him. Why are so many people convinced that just because he doesn't want to be a priest anymore that he is falling away or not doing God's will? it's not a lot of people. but they're important people to chris. and i know it must hurt a lot to hear. "i've been concerned about you." he's heard that one a lot....a lot of seminarians and his youth minister from home
but then theres the many people who have come up to me and told me how they've never seen Chris so happy...so alive. what is truth? what is His will? i dont' want to freaking date chris if i'm getting in the way of God's will. i care about him so much. i only want God's will for him. if he told me tomorrow that he wanted to go to seminary, or that he was thinking about discerning priesthood still i would encourage him. it would be hard to let him go, but i wouldn't have it any other way. he would do the same for me.
Lord Jesus, please bless us so that our hearts are truly open to Your loving voice. take any fear in our hearts, anything that may be keeping our hearts from you completely. Help us to truly listen to your voie in everything we do. Give our hearts courage and strength so they may not faulter or be swayed by perception. Lord I thankyou for the beautiful gift of Chris in my life. You have given me so much, Jesus. You have truly shown me the beauty that You see in me in countless ways this year. And one special way was/ is through chris. He is a gift.
Lord, You are all I need. You are more than enough for me. Thankyou for your comfort. Thankyou for protecting me. Thankyou for loving me even when I don't acknowledge You. You will bring peace. I trust You.
it's something yes that we should hope for and pray that we are doing. but we never get a black and white letter from God even if we pray night and day. He doesn't work that way.
It's His will for us to love Him and entrust our hearts to Him. that much I know. as long as we're doing that, I just don't think that He's going to lead us astray.
I'm sick of people judging and hurting. I know people just care about him. Why are so many people convinced that just because he doesn't want to be a priest anymore that he is falling away or not doing God's will? it's not a lot of people. but they're important people to chris. and i know it must hurt a lot to hear. "i've been concerned about you." he's heard that one a lot....a lot of seminarians and his youth minister from home
but then theres the many people who have come up to me and told me how they've never seen Chris so happy...so alive. what is truth? what is His will? i dont' want to freaking date chris if i'm getting in the way of God's will. i care about him so much. i only want God's will for him. if he told me tomorrow that he wanted to go to seminary, or that he was thinking about discerning priesthood still i would encourage him. it would be hard to let him go, but i wouldn't have it any other way. he would do the same for me.
Lord Jesus, please bless us so that our hearts are truly open to Your loving voice. take any fear in our hearts, anything that may be keeping our hearts from you completely. Help us to truly listen to your voie in everything we do. Give our hearts courage and strength so they may not faulter or be swayed by perception. Lord I thankyou for the beautiful gift of Chris in my life. You have given me so much, Jesus. You have truly shown me the beauty that You see in me in countless ways this year. And one special way was/ is through chris. He is a gift.
Lord, You are all I need. You are more than enough for me. Thankyou for your comfort. Thankyou for protecting me. Thankyou for loving me even when I don't acknowledge You. You will bring peace. I trust You.