Forgiving, Forgeting, and just plane honesty
I just read april's journal, I guess from this past weekend. I could say alot of mean things till i was red and purple in the face, but i wont. instead i'll stick to the subject. But first I will say sorry for the loss of your 3 friends.
Moving on I think it's good to resort to religion so long as you truly try and dont kid yourself. I forgave april a while back for the shit she put me through time and time again till the very end. Though i will NEVER forget the BULL SHIT SHE PUT ME THROUGH TIME AND TIME AGAIN AS I HELPED HER THROUGH HER TOUGH TIMES. For that april you can go f*** yourself with all the wrong doing's you've done and think you can make up for.
And for the honesty:
Honestly I believed in you, you let me down.
Nanny beleived in you, you let her down.
Your family for a momment believed in you, you let them down.
you are even good enough to bull shit yourself into thinking your gonna do more with your life, and all i can say is f*** what you say. f*** what you think, f*** who you are, because it has'nt worked out for you nor ANYONE IN YOUR LIFE HAS IT?
you wanna do something with your life DO IT!
you wanna be a better person BE IT!
you want people to do so much for you for so little, and then make the little things you do try and seem like they owe you so much. f*** U!!!!
be that better person you wanna be so bad, and stop bull shitting yourself thinking your life is so great.
P.S. : just cause i forgave you does'nt mean things will EVER be good between us. FUCK YOU! and merry christmas!
Moving on I think it's good to resort to religion so long as you truly try and dont kid yourself. I forgave april a while back for the shit she put me through time and time again till the very end. Though i will NEVER forget the BULL SHIT SHE PUT ME THROUGH TIME AND TIME AGAIN AS I HELPED HER THROUGH HER TOUGH TIMES. For that april you can go f*** yourself with all the wrong doing's you've done and think you can make up for.
And for the honesty:
Honestly I believed in you, you let me down.
Nanny beleived in you, you let her down.
Your family for a momment believed in you, you let them down.
you are even good enough to bull shit yourself into thinking your gonna do more with your life, and all i can say is f*** what you say. f*** what you think, f*** who you are, because it has'nt worked out for you nor ANYONE IN YOUR LIFE HAS IT?
you wanna do something with your life DO IT!
you wanna be a better person BE IT!
you want people to do so much for you for so little, and then make the little things you do try and seem like they owe you so much. f*** U!!!!
be that better person you wanna be so bad, and stop bull shitting yourself thinking your life is so great.
P.S. : just cause i forgave you does'nt mean things will EVER be good between us. FUCK YOU! and merry christmas!